I Don't Understand Myself.
I am confused. I feel like I have a track to follow, but that I don't fit in it. I feel like I don't fit into any path, and if I did like I couldn' follow it. I can't stick with anything. I'm always interested in anything and everything, but I get bored with things quickly. I go from one thing to the next and lose motivation if things take too long. I don't want to do things project by project, I want and have to commit myself to long term things but I'm not able to.
Frankly sometimes I feel crazy. I get emotions and ideas in my head and I can't always control myself. And although I'm realizing my faults and am able to fix them sometimes, the one thing I never get is how constantly my personality shifts. For a few weeks or months I will be one way and then I'll suddenly shift and be different. I go through times of being very productive, and other times where there is all the potentional and desire to do things but I don't actually do anything. And I don't get most is its an entire personality shift, I will go from being talkative all the time to more reserved. but it isn't always a mood change like from depressed to upbeat. just tendencies and things that I do. although my moods do change sometimes they aren't totally random like my personality seems to be. I just want to understand myself and I want to feel some stability for once.