I'm Just Lost.

I'm 39 years old.  married.  kids.  and I just feel very lost.  i wanted to do something with my life.. .anything.  but I feel like i am wasting it.  but I also feel like i can't do anything.  it's too late or something.  i have no time.  <sigh>  guess i'm depressed or something.

graceboomer graceboomer
36-40, M
5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

I am in the same boat. I am a single parent with 4 children 1 of which still lives at home. I can't seem to get my head above water. I could cry! I have never been so bad off. Things just keep coming up to where I"m trying to figure out which bill isn"t getting paid this time around.

i'm about same age as you, and i feel the same things as you, have children, lovely girl friend but i'm entrepreneur that with debt, maybe cause of debt and no money, i feel so lonely and lost! almost all my friend which have lower level of education are doing very well. and i have no direction too! yes, graceboomer, we need motivation!<br />
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I have done all weird things to past my lonely time and try to motivate myself, my gf and kids support ed me in some way, i feel still feel not enough! but i really thanks to EP, with some member advice and tell out everything inside my mind, i'm now in better mood! i think you need to tell everything here and read it again and again, then you will find a way to do what you wanted to do! cause you are tying every problem out, you know what's have to do!

It's really hard to pin point. Maybe it just the bleak times were living in now. I'm the main source of income for my family and my company is cutting back hours, so that puts a ton of stress on me. I hate thinking about and worrying about money. It honestly makes me sick. But I'm not sure my "lost" feelings can be linked to money. Money is just a stress in my life now. Heck it's a stress in everyones life right now. <br />
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I think I'm lost because... well.... I have no direction at the moment. I'm just sort of going with the flow. I used to be excited and motivated to do different things. I just to have a passion. It's gone. Maybe it's just a mid-life crisis or something. I look around me and I see people who are better than me and more successful than me and well, i just wish I had direction and drive again. I feel so tired. I'm just exhausted all the time now. My wife works nights so when I get home from work we just say 'hi' and 'bye. There no joy anymore. I'm just going with the flow. <br />
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One thing I always wanted to do is start my own business. I love the idea of being and entrepreneur. Love it. But a.) I have no money and b.) I have no time. Between work and parenthood I'm tapped. <br />
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But I'm not myself either. Something about me is beyond exhausted. I'm.. like.. done... with everything.<br />
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I was over a friends house and I heard his wife tell him just how proud she was of her husband. He recently got promoted to a new position. I was just blown away. Doesn't sound like much right. But I was just amazed that she said that. All I could think was I wish that my wife could say that about me. And then, the very next thought was... i wish I could say that about my wife. But I'm just ... I don't know... I guess I'm just so "whatever" about everything right now. <br />
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I'm not sure if anything I wrote above makes any sense. I know the subject matter is all over the place. <br />
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Basically I just lack direction and the motivation to be something other than what I am now. Maybe I'm just lazy. I know I'm depressed, which causes me to be lazy. <br />
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Anyway, I could write a book about my issues but I don't want to put anyone to sleep. I just wanted to give you a bit more insight. If anyone has any suggestion I welcome them. thanks for your support.

ARe you happy in your marriage, work, day to day life?<br />
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Do you feel lonely, anxious, just sad for no reason?<br />
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If you open up more, maybe we can help you a little.

perhaps its time to re-evaluate where your at in life and where you want to be.it really does help to talk about how you feel here on EP if you trust someones opinion i would be happy to talk to you when im on.there are also others here you can trust