I have been seeing a councilor and a therapist now for some time. Being here on EP has helped me more in the few days I have been a member than they have in the years I've been going. I can share my life and not be judged but loved and accepted. I know now that there are people out there who understand me and feel the same way I do. I don't have to feel scared or alone any longer! I know I am going to have my bad and even horrible days, but knowing that I have a community of people who I can confide in and get help and love from makes me feel good about myself again. Thank you to those of you who have opened your hearts to me. I appreciate it more than you know. And you know who you are. I hope to meet more people here and to be a comfort to those who need love just as I did. <3
simchick simchick
22-25, F
1 Response Oct 31, 2007

Hello again<br />
I have found EP helpful to, to vent, if nothing else. I know somewhat how you feel. I often feel like a failure and a disappointment. I have cut myself (like I needed more scars) and I have put myself in situations where I knew I would end up in danger, just so I could end up hurt or worse, in an attempt to end my life. I have considered suicide. I really don't know why I've been allowed to live through the things I have put myself through. I think it's like you said in the comment you made under your "Fate" experience; there is a reason for everything. I don't know if I believe in God anymore, but I do think there is a higher power in the universe that keeps all the gears and cogs in mesh. I'm breathing an moving for a reason. So are you. I don't know what mine is, just yet. It seems you don't know yours yet either. I guess we both have to hang in a bit longer. Like you said, I'm glad we found this site to share our thoughts and feelings; if nothing else, it will keep us motivated. Later.