I Let My Kids Down

In the past 5 years I've but my kids the ought hell with my mental issue. I haven't been the kind of mother that they deserve or need. At one point I tried a suicide by cop and almost got my kids killed. I can't seem to get past that . I wish I myself had died.
Jtj91722 Jtj91722
46-50, F
Dec 2, 2012