Just Don't Belong Here

Hi,

Another Mommy of a Matthew here, and I have never belonged with these people I call family. Funny, there aren't many members in my family, yet I don't know them and they don't know me. It is truly awkward and I have invited the senior members to celebrate Christmas Day with us. My husband thinks they're a odd bunch and my children have never celebrated Christmas with them before (excluding my daughter, before her brothers came along - 11 years ago). It is what it is. So, for the last 11 years, we've gone to the in-laws house. That's all my kids know. It's not about me...it is what it is. Haha!

So, I would love to swap stories and let you know, you're not alone (even if you feel as though you are somedays).

Understanding and supportive,

Chris Upton

YES! Thank you! I hate going to see my family. They are not bad people. I just have different views and interests from them. They want me to be like them, but I can't and don't want to be. I know I don't measure up in their eyes and I feel like I'm being judged. It's tense and uncomfortable far too often for me and I leave feeling utterly exhausted after a mere 24 hr visit. It shouldn't be that difficult or unpleasant for me. They are all extremely conservative while I am middle of the road (slightly liberal people are looked down upon in my family and thought to be ignorant). I am the black sheep.

i seem to feel the same way for the most part. i mean sometimes i feel like i belong when everything is good and happy. but then when it seems dead like were just watching tv and not really talking or saying anything (which seems to happen alot in my house) i dont feel like i belong with them. like i ask myself, why am i with these people? i feel like i barely know them. and then that seems so weird to me cuz i feel like i should be a part of my family but im not.