Just Don't Belong Here

I am among Family. It's suppose to be Meaningful and happy. It's suppose to Feel like You belong. I don't Feel that way here. I feel Like I am among a bunch of people I don't even Know. I ask myself Where the hell I am. and What I am doing. I just feel I don't belong Here..

matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 15, 2008


Another Mommy of a Matthew here, and I have never belonged with these people I call family. Funny, there aren't many members in my family, yet I don't know them and they don't know me. It is truly awkward and I have invited the senior members to celebrate Christmas Day with us. My husband thinks they're a odd bunch and my children have never celebrated Christmas with them before (excluding my daughter, before her brothers came along - 11 years ago). It is what it is. So, for the last 11 years, we've gone to the in-laws house. That's all my kids know. It's not about me...it is what it is. Haha!

So, I would love to swap stories and let you know, you're not alone (even if you feel as though you are somedays).

Understanding and supportive,

Chris Upton

YES! Thank you! I hate going to see my family. They are not bad people. I just have different views and interests from them. They want me to be like them, but I can't and don't want to be. I know I don't measure up in their eyes and I feel like I'm being judged. It's tense and uncomfortable far too often for me and I leave feeling utterly exhausted after a mere 24 hr visit. It shouldn't be that difficult or unpleasant for me. They are all extremely conservative while I am middle of the road (slightly liberal people are looked down upon in my family and thought to be ignorant). I am the black sheep.