I Don't Really Feel to Be Abused, not for everythings ...

 When i was 11, i had sex with my cousin of 15 but it was more a game than a abused things. We where in a wood and we get naked and had masturbations together. At school, because i sleeped there, during the nite, some of guys get to my bed ... Imagin the followed things ... So, this one thing was and abused one ! I was 12, they was 15. Sometimes i remember this parts of my life, i think this contribute about my sexual preferences : teens or pre-teens girls. But behind sex, i'm looking for the love whitch can give up only by this kind of girls : Natural one, innocent one, Real one. I'm looking for a girl like that even if i'm older than her. I'll be glad to bring her a true Love without rear-thinkings.

sadlifeman sadlifeman
31-35, M
1 Response Feb 24, 2009

Dear sadlifeman, <br />
thank you for sharing your story. Just because you did it {sex and ************} as a game does not mean it did not hurt you in your head, heart and sexual ego. Also with the guys taking advantage of you at such a young age it would certainly make it hard to feel regular sexual feelings for women, and we do get aroused by things done to us, even though we hate it. I get aroused when I imagine rape in my mind, but I DON'T want to be raped! It has to do with what happened to me when I was young, like you. Go see someone, don't be too proud or ashamed....it happens so often in life, sad to say. Find a counselor or therapist who can help you to put your sexual feelings in the right place, it will be ok. A sex therapist can help, also faith and prayer....IF you believe. I will be praying for you, and if you need to talk, please write, I will answer as soon as I recieve your message. Michelle