Can't Stand It.....I feel ashamed when I think of how much I care when other people are in emotional pain. There is a guy at work I hardly know and his girlfriend died of cancer the other week. I literally cannot stop thinking about it and am really worried about him and everyone concerned, but especially him. Two days after she died, he came in to check his emails and he looked so vulnerable and distraught that I had to stop myself from going to him and hugging him. It was almost like I could feel some of his pain and anguish and I just wanted to help but knew and know there is little I can do. I was moved by his pain and also moved by his courage. To have woken up, got dressed, out of the house and into work so soon after the death shows immense courage and strength.
Her funeral was this week but I have no idea when he will be back in work and I am just worried for him and really hope he will be ok.
I have also cried privately when I have comforted a friend through the terminal illness and death of her mother. I could see the pain and anguish in her eyes, hear it in her voice and I just wanted to hold her and make it all better for her but again, knew I couldn't.
That's the thing about bereavements. What always gets me is that there is little you can do to make things better. In other cases you can but with grief you can't. I hate feeling so powerless to help others in pain and hate how unpredictable and unfair the world can be. I feel stories like these make me angry as she didn't deserve to die and he doesn't deserve to go through this. Death of a loved one is the crueliest and hardest thing a person will have to go through I feel and it makes me sad I can't do more.