It's only a recent, but I have started feeling really scared about my future. There is so much I want to do, so much I want to learn and experience, I worry that I will run out of time. I really want to get into NIDA which is the National Institute of Dramatic Arts. They don't usually take people straight out of school but I think I have a chance. I always say that I hope I get in the first year, but I don't really want to. I say it to keep my mum happy. I want to wait, if I get in then I will never ever have time to do the things that I need to do. I will be going straight from school to uni, and then straight into the work force. I want to travel, fall in love, climb a mountain, discover myself! I am scared I won't ever get to do these things and I will look back on my life when I am old and wrinkly, with a certain sense of regret.