Sometimes, when I look around and see the sky, calm and blue above the immense amount of people rushing from place to place, it makes me realize how big and complicated the world is, and how little it would matter if I wasn't there. I sometimes feel like I'm being swallowed by everyday life. Looking at and wondering about this complex world frightens me for I realize I'm part of it. I wonder how many people could vanish from this earth before it would start to have any serious consequences. But that's a question I don't really want to know the answer to I guess.