Tired Of Being Sad/lonely

This is my first post on this website, I just registered a few minutes ago. I read through a couple of stories and decided to contribute something of my own. It's heartening to hear that i am not alone, when I feel alone (if that makes sense). I am 20 years old, and I am at a point where I literally feel like my life is pointless and already over. I was always a pretty popular person in highschool, but that's where the good times seemed to end. I never made good enough grades to go to a nice university, so I attended a local community college. I'm definitely smart enough to achieve a 4.0, but after 2 lousy semesters I haven't been back. I felt so worthless being there. Almost all friends I had in high school are off working on their degrees, and many of them are close to being done. I work at a local sandwich shop which I absolutely despise.

I truly feel as if I have no one to turn to. My parents and I haven't gotten along for years. I don't have a girlfriend or any close friends that I trust to share my feelings with. Every day I wake up I feel like a complete loser. It's like I am stuck in a place of absolute hell, and I have no forseeable way out of it. Almost all of my time is spent by myself. I wish I were in school, on good terms with family, and had at least a few people in my life that I knew cared about me. I've been to the point of suicide several times. The girl I am absolutely in love with is perfectly happy with her new boyfriend and I can't get over that.

I realize most people on here are writing about things like divorce or dealing with a death in the family, so my problems probably seem quite trivial. But I have been so lonely and so sad for as long as i can remember. Every morning I wake up I just wish i could go back to sleep and dream of a better life. To be so alone for this long is unbearable. I dont think of myself as a bad person, and I can't really figure out why people avoid me. Sometimes I think that I have something seriously wrong with me, something that everyone else can see but I can't. Anyways, I just wanted to share how I feel  in case anyone else out there, especially around my age, feels teh same.

nate3702 nate3702
18-21, M
4 Responses Feb 9, 2010

Hi there. Just remember that maybe your problems might sound trivial to others but they are not! Everybody hurts in different ways. I feel much the same way as you do and i always hear "your too sensitive " or "dont take things too personally" but unless they can feel what we feel they have no right to judge. I am 32 years old and thought that by now i would be married with children or have a great job that i loved but i have none of that. And i feel so lonely because i have no one to come home to and talk to. i do have friends but it still seems like i am the third wheel at social situations. I too sometimes feel like there is something wrong with me but i know i have something great to share with people and you do too. Thanks for sharing your story!

And this too shall pass. I am much older than you and your friends above and know how difficult life can be sometimes. <br />
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Life is a series of comings and goings especially with significant events (graduating high school) college and people coming in and out of our lives.<br />
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I have never really been a goal oriented person but like all of you, I have been experiencing extreme loneliness as well as depression after the loss of my home of 28 years, a job and most importantly what I thought was the love of my love.<br />
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I have been crying non stop. My friends are trying to help me and have suggested that I start to write down daily goals in order to get out of bed and not be depressed.<br />
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That is my suggestion to you. Try to find something (volunteering at a children's hospital) something to make you feel worthwhile.<br />
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While I admit that life can sometimes put you on overload,TRY AND NOT GIVE UP! Take one step at a time at finding an interest or hobby where you can meet others. The rest will fall into place<br />
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I wish you all well.<br />
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God bless.<br />
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BEV

I feel like this all the time. like theres just no point to life anymore im 19 gonna b 20 in may and i literally feel like theres nothing left for me. I dont have friends i can realli talk to the one friend i have is 2 hours away and wen ever we talk its all about her. I hold all my feelings in. Life used to be better but wen i went away to school al hell broke loose. i have no bf and no guys want me except for sex. I also feel like somethings wrong with me i dont think i deserve to be alone forever but it feels like thats whats gonna happen. Message me if you want to kno i understand how you feel and i feel it to its nice to kno im not the only one

Thanks for sharing man. I feel the same way as you in highschool I had a lot of friends and I hung out with a few girls on a regular basis but now im older im 24 and I dont get to hang out with those people anymore. Things are just different now I havent had a girlfriend for a long time and feel really alone. I get the impression girls arent into me they think I am ugly so I can never get a girl to notice me.