I Think To Much

Ever since I was a little girl I felt kind of different...

My thoughts was always so much deeper, then the other folks at my age. I always have something to worry about, and it sucks. It sometimes feels like my mind is going to explode. One of the things I think to much about is death. I'm always afraid that i have any dangerous disease, and sometimes i look up stuff at the internet, witch makes me so much more afraid.

The worst thing is that I'm not sure I have REAL friends. I have close friends, and we have things in common, but still, they don't know who I am deep down. No one really does. I just think that everybody else at my age are so.... Superficial. They never think about life, only about how their hair look, and how they can get more friends on the social netwerk. I feel alone. No, I feel lonely.

I really hope I'm not the only feeling this way...
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2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

I am much older than you, and I've felt that way most of my life too Snowdrop. It can be hard, but if you honor that deep innerself, you will find people eventually, who get you, and are looking for someone who is sincere and authentic and honest, the way you are. Even if you drift out of their lives sometimes, you will always be welcome back, because you are just that special. It's hard to find people to connect with, but I what I know is that people like us have a lot to offer to the world. In fact we are the ones who make the world a better place. Thinking about death isn't terrible, but it's probably not what you were put here for. Your uniqueness is a gift to the rest of us. Embrace it and you will be fine.

Your just more mature and sensable than your friends. Don't worry the will catch up eventually

Your most welcome