Why?

I can't describe it. I just feel different. I'm not depressed, I love my family, friends, and everyone thats around me. My parents were immigrants from Peru and I was born in California, I grew up with a noble family that went through hard times. Sometimes I wonder if thats the reason why I'm more mature than others.
I feel like I'm destined to be big in the world, I feel like I would be the next Einstein or Plato. I want to make a difference in the world and I feel like it will happen on it's own though. I'm only 17, but I've had years of not fitting in for my odd thoughts and different personality. Everyone around me is here for a reason, I can't stand but think that, sometimes I think I'm being watched, but then I think "no, that's crazy". Could it be that I'm constantly being watched? I don't know, but it doesn't feel normal.

I'm really open to so many religions, I have yet to adopt one for myself, but I study them like crazy. I'm looking for an answer... about us. I want to know about us. Why were we created? Who was our true creator? Who is "God"? Is it possible that "God" may have been a far more intellectual being that created us and was then misinterpreted by uneducated cavemen?

SO many questions that have a TRUE answer that have yet to be found. Just like the Dead Sea Scrolls, there is bound to be thousands of documents forgotten by our ancestors and sitting deep in the caverns under some middle eastern desert.
I want to know. I want to know everything. This is all so overwhelmingly complex that I might just break my computer in half right now. But I want to know. I need to know. I want to be the person that makes the next huge discovery in science or archeology.



I am under the curse of curiosity, and I am bound to it till the end of my days.
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

I feel the same way. I started to wonder as I've gotten older if there is anyone else in the world who feels this way. That something or someone is watching you and you are more important to this world than you can even comprehend at the moment. Glad to know I am not alone.