Why ?? He Came Back

I AM 19 , am so once upon a time i was in 4 years relationship, where we broke up for those ridiculous reasons, although we loved each other a lot! he felt sick as i did then his mother forced him to get engaged in order to forget me.. but through his relation with her he couldn't get any of what I used to give him. After months, where I had sorrow & pain , praying day & night willing him to come back because I could get over him i still had HOPE. my prayers got answered and so one day he came back to me and asked me begging to get back to him and he was like I wanna marry you tomorrow if you agree , I gave him another chance.. I knew that I would see another person not the one I knew and thats exactly what happened, only the first day he was that old person that I knew expressing his love , care , and respect towards me , but then he totally changed days passed and he didn't call or text me ! THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU COME BK?? he treated me like **** and as if i am the one begged him to get back . the way he talked to me when I called was like he was forced to talk!! when I asked him the reason behind what he's doing ! all what he said is that I donut have time ! IMAGINE your bf tells u i don't have time to talk to u ! I was heartbroken and no one to share with ! after few days with the same attitude I said that's it , enough !! i talked to him started yelling because i really do care about him but he doesn't seem bothered at all ! he replied in a really cold way who;e i was on fire ,
he said , I don't wanna torture you with me I don't think we could continue together , I am grown up and i have responsibilities work and studying at the same time , I need my freedom and I am not thinking about marriage right now but when ever I wanted to I would ask my mother to look for me a girl.
EVERY thing ended between us since that day , am still confused why did he do all that ! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ????
I CANT FORGET HIM , NEITHER GET OVER HIM
IT HURTS !!
HES MY FIRST LOVE I CNT FORGET THE DETAILS OF AL THESE 4 YEARS WE WENT THROUGH EVERY SINGLE DAY IS PICTURED ON MY MIND
TRYING TO KILL HOPE SOMEHOW BUT I CANT :(
I Feel soo lonely right now .. i can't trust relationships anymore
this is my first post sorry if i took so long but i though i might feel better by posting my experience
littleangie littleangie
18-21, F
Nov 26, 2012