Making My Own Rut.

Cracking jokes are my thing.

I love to make people smile. I love to hear them laugh at what I have to say.

Sometimes I pretend to be oblivious or dumbfounded to a situation and come up with some sort of phrase that gets my friends rolling. I like attention. It's one of my bad habits to try and obtain as much of it as I can. Recently, it's given me trouble. I've tried different methods, different "experimental jokes" to see how I can get people to notice me more. At least all of what I say is aimed toward myself. I try not to put other people down because I know the feeling of embarrassment and humiliation. I've come to know that feeling even more because some of my friends have been taking it "too far". Now, I feel stupid. Any joke I incorporate into a conversation, around with those that I've known for a while, almost instantly turns into what they see as me being, well, stupid I guess. Mistakes I make are constantly being repeated as inside jokes that peak over the limit of funny (to me) and make me feel, again, stupid. I have no one to blame for this situation but myself.

zim zim
18-21, F
1 Response Apr 27, 2007

At least you take responsibility for it. If you turn over a new leaf (try "smart jokes" instead) they will eventually forget your past stuff. Maybe. Or you may have to find a new crowd.