I think I am dumb, stupid, and gone from reality. I gave up all I had for a guy I knew could never be mine. I loved him... gave him my heart and let him play me. I was stupid enough to leave it all for a friend then, thinking he could love me as my first love could never love me back. I am stupid, thinking this boy can love me when he can barely keep track of his life; thinking of even loving men because of a love that broke his heart. I am lost... what am I to do? I am alone and can never gain all that I chose to give up in the name of love.... I loved him so much, and what have I gained? Lost my family, my home, my dignity, and whatever I had believed I was before. Now I am in love with someone who can never love me back. What is wrong with me? I guess I am pretty stupid. I wish I could die...
walker13sl walker13sl
26-30, F
Aug 17, 2014