I Am Psycho And Can't Help It

I just got married a few months ago and now it feels like everything has changed... I'm wondering if I made the right choice. I feel like a different person... I don't go out, I haven't made any new friends in my new town, I've gotten lazy and depressed, I feel old, etc. Everything my husband does is organized, while I am not messy, but I don't clean up everything right away. I don't feel that I have any responsibility over MY homelife because he is always doing the laundry, vacuuming, washing the car. I must sound horrible and ingrate full, but I like taking care of my **** when I want to take care of it. I'm very independent, shouldn't have ever gotten married. He talks to me constantly throughout the day, and I just want to zone out and read without interruption. Sometimes I ask him to leave me alone because I need my space, and he won't... he just keeps asking "But why? What's wrong?". I don't know why! I just want to be alone dammit! I'm so crazy, right? What's my problem? I've always been alone/single... then I am all of a sudden married and I can't deal. How can I deal? I always told myself I would never get a divorce. And I can't back out this early. I'm scared that I might reach a point where I might flee. I used to do that when I was a little kid and I get over stressed and angry... I would run away and hide from my mom. Now will I do that as an adult? I just have some serious "space" issues. Am I alone?
crazynewlywed crazynewlywed
26-30, F
May 19, 2012