I Feel That I Have a Lot of Different Sides to My Personality
I have felt for a long time that I wasn't and am not myself and have felt that maybe I'm just crazy or that I have another side to me... I realized that that was the case some time around last year... I looked up the symptoms of Multiple Personality Disorder and everything fit perfectly and felt right... I'm 15 and so who knows. I might just be crazy... I have been miserable with the feelings I have and want to share some of the things that have happened to me and the feelings I get so that if someone disagrees that it is multiple personality I am experiencing, you can correct me. It would really help me!
It's been maybe.. a year or two that I've had problems where I tend to get carried away with stuff that I KNOW isn't real and have told lies and made up things of my life or about me and it not only hurt my friends but it hurt me as well... I would regret saying anything and would despise myself. I honestly didn't even mean to say whatever I had said! I didn't understand why I continued to say or do things that were completely out of character to me... I love writing and the main character name I love is Rose and I know that my fictional character is what I truly want to be. I know I can't EVER be her but I wish I could create something new of myself, but I like who I am and wouldn't change that for the world! I have problems where even my mom worries about me when one minute I'm happy and the next minute I'm sad. Again, maybe I'm just crazy! I started to have a voice inside my head and I would argue with it and it wouldn't go away. I have a clear image of another person and have even dreamed about this person pushing me off of a high place... It has been driving me crazy since it's like the bad side of my personality and puts thoughts into my head to hurt people when I'm angry at them! But I'm strong willed and haven't done anything like that thankfully! I fought with this.. other? today and decided that I would stop ignoring it because it seems to seek attention... I know this MAY sound stupid and.. well, crazy and I REALLY hope you believe me... there are other things I would have added but it probably would have made me sound crazier... I do NOT want to seek therapists or doctors on this for fear that I AM just crazy but need reassurance. I am posting this today in hopes of someone reading this and replying what they think is my case. Please don't criticize me! D:
It's been maybe.. a year or two that I've had problems where I tend to get carried away with stuff that I KNOW isn't real and have told lies and made up things of my life or about me and it not only hurt my friends but it hurt me as well... I would regret saying anything and would despise myself. I honestly didn't even mean to say whatever I had said! I didn't understand why I continued to say or do things that were completely out of character to me... I love writing and the main character name I love is Rose and I know that my fictional character is what I truly want to be. I know I can't EVER be her but I wish I could create something new of myself, but I like who I am and wouldn't change that for the world! I have problems where even my mom worries about me when one minute I'm happy and the next minute I'm sad. Again, maybe I'm just crazy! I started to have a voice inside my head and I would argue with it and it wouldn't go away. I have a clear image of another person and have even dreamed about this person pushing me off of a high place... It has been driving me crazy since it's like the bad side of my personality and puts thoughts into my head to hurt people when I'm angry at them! But I'm strong willed and haven't done anything like that thankfully! I fought with this.. other? today and decided that I would stop ignoring it because it seems to seek attention... I know this MAY sound stupid and.. well, crazy and I REALLY hope you believe me... there are other things I would have added but it probably would have made me sound crazier... I do NOT want to seek therapists or doctors on this for fear that I AM just crazy but need reassurance. I am posting this today in hopes of someone reading this and replying what they think is my case. Please don't criticize me! D:
By:
ZELDAPRINCESSES
Age:
13-15
,
Female
