I'm not even sure I WANT to anymore. I mean, even if I did, I have so many issues now with personal space; if you even touch my neck, I will JUMP and feel kind of...violated, I guess it is. at this point, any sex I would have would affect me like rape, even if it was consentual. I can't really have a boyfriend; I can't hold hands, I can't hug, I CAN'T kiss, and be comfortable. all of it would be an invasion of my space. Right now, I'm really damn glad I haven't had a crush for over a year.
Even the thought of sex terrifies and disgusts me.
What the hell is wrong with me?

aodake aodake
18-21, F
Jun 17, 2010