I Feel That Something Is Missing From My Life

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By: ImJustOneGirl

Written on December 26th, 2012

I'm 18 years old and have been though a lot. like I have lived with my grandma and grandpa from the day I was born. At the time I thought my mom and dad didn't want me. So I lived with them, but one night when I was 11 I went to wake up my grandma and she wouldn't wake up, she was cold. I didn't know what to do so we call 911 and they said she was dead. So at 11 years old I had already found my grandma/mom dead in her bed. Oh there's more, so after that I couldn't live with my grandpa anymore so my aunt took me away to live somewhere totally new, somewhere where everyone was a stranger to me. I am now 18 years old and have lived with 5 different families and I have never really felt like I have belong in any of them. Right now I live with my friend and her family. I have had an amazing boyfriend for 3 years now and he has help me though so much, He's the only one I can really go to and at that I know it's annoying to him, So now I'm on here. Just wanting to get things out from inside me. Jut wanting people to understand and talk to me....

By: ImJustOneGirl

Age: 18-21 , Female

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28 responses

arfarfarfarf

You sound very strong to have gone through so much and to still be able to have things like what sounds like quite a wonderful relationship...and you are dealing with this in the right way! I hope that you find peace!

Jan 30
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Thank you! I think I may have found some peace.
  
  Feb 20
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brooketine

Well for only being 18 years old. You have healthy decision making choices. Reaching out in a safe way for (im guessing) support through others because of your not feeling connected too much to anyone but your boyfriend. Its considerate of you to think of his feelings but why it would be annoying him is questionable. Unless hes studying for finals and has a couple much younger siblings to take care of and dosnt have alot time to stop and visit with you. At any rate...Im much older but I am a female that will listen or try and give advice if you need it. So enjoy being you young lady.

Dec 27, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Well thank you! Yeah I try to look for the best in things and try not o make bad choices. I do good for the most part. I think if feel like I'm complaining in a way, I mean I could see how I could be complaining in someone else eyes. He's great don't get me wrong, just not the best listener... but that's okay. That's why I'm trying this and thanks I'll might have to come and talk to you now that you said I could!!!!
  
  Dec 27, 2012
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ABoyInForeignCountry

Do you know how to send a big massive hug in here?

Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  no.....
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  FYI i hug my laptop right now for you.
  hope it deliver
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Well thanks you much!
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  haha
  I'm a bit crazy huh?
  Your welcome
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  ha ha no!
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  It was great about you and your bf there. It would be a huge achievement for me, if I had one
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  I mean if i have gf
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Yeah, but like I said I feel like I annoying him with all my problems
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  No you're not. it's a consequence as a bf to accept his gf in any way or conditions.
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  I know he accepts me I just feel like I annoy him... Ha ha oh well
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  just live your live we are still young
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  I like with my grandparents and I am 12 and everyday I am scared that something like that is going to happen if she dies I won't be able to to live with him my grandma left 4 3 weeks to visit family so I was alone with my grandpa and I had to cook 4 all 3weeks and I was left alone alot of the time . At that time I was 8
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  You know what help2080. It's good you thinking like that. and since you think like that, then spend good time with your grandparents and do not ever disappoint them.
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  Trust me I try but we don't get along and I have other problems in my family so they wouldn't car any ways
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  what is car got something to do with this?
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  Oops I ment they Won't care
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ABoyInForeignCountry
  well as long as you think you'r doing it right than it is, doesn't matter what people think or care or not
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  Thanks
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Hey help2080, We are totally the same, the day before my grandma pasted we got in the huge fight and for the longest time I thought it was my fault that he passed. Just always remember that the love you very much, their old so they are a little more grummpy, but they love you like your one of their own.<3
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  Thank and I thought the same thing so I keeped reading thro it
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Well I'm glad you did! I'm here if you need help with anything!
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- help2080
  Thanks it's nice to no some one is there 4 me
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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- ImJustOneGirl
  Your welcome
  
  Dec 26, 2012
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