RestlessLately i've began feeling more and more wolf-like. Today i was really mad at some people and i was already tired from a long school day. It was my last class of the day and i was almost late. These girls who are walking by take up the entire walk way ( i was outside) and i was almost pushed off it. Plus the were talking louder than needed so me being the person who has a low tolerence level i got annoyed. I felt this strange feeling rise inside me. I wanted to grolw so badly. To show them that i was irked and make them just be quiet. But i supressed the urge to growl, i can't exactly explain it but it elt almost painful to fight it. The pain was hard to describe. It wasn't exactly pain but just a strong feeling inside. It probably took almost all my will-power not to growl aloud.
With the weather getting colder here i felt another strange urge. I want to hunt. To go running through the woods and catch something. I remember one night i heard howling outside. I wanted to howl back so badly. There was some strange pull i can't explain and it almost hurt because i kept on fighting it. I have to be careful down south they like to hunt here. So i can't risked be found out. My cravings for "people food" seem to have lessened. Sometimes when i look at it i don't feel hungrey at all.
I'm so worried right now. I have no idea what i'd do if i suddenly lost control in the middle of the school day.
(P.S. i want to learn how to control shifting. I haven't shifted before and i'm wondering if any of you if you know how to could tell me.)
Ryekir 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 Dec 8, 2011