Horribly Alienated

i feel horribly alienated all the time. i have tried to correct it. i try to make friends. but it is impossible.

people don't understand when i talk about it. this alienation is way beyond loneliness.

it's horrendous.

diredepths diredepths
46-50, F
3 Responses Mar 3, 2010

Do you stay a lot of time indoors alone? It could be of some help to walk outside: at least you can see some people even if you don't talk to them or at least say "Good day". I sometimes go to the library too, though it's been a while since I've done that. I go there because I am surrounded by people and I can find interesting books.<br />
I am alienated socially too and I think since this condition of mine dates from early childhood it affected me mentally too. I currently have a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia and am on medication. Don't let that scare you though but let it be a motivator for you to make some easy steps towards keeping in touch with some people. You can write to me if you want: I am looking for pen pals to correspond with.<br />
Maybe you can write how this alienation came about into your life and what you are trying to do to survive.

somtimes being alone gives you a freedom that not many people have. you should embrace your alienation and then maybe someone will come along

Luckily I have 3 friends that are like me, but i have a girlfriend who doesn't share any of my interests and she doesn't understand me at all. Shes like Katherine from the Novel "1984" or Dana from "Ghost World"<br />
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I feel like killing myself because its so unbearable having to deal with this ****, but you have to keep trying and make things good for the alienated because people like us are going to keep popping up less and less in the future and if we dont at least try then this world will always be ******