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I've been in this sort of depressing state in the last few weeks. I've been getting the feeling that my life really sucks. I want to change that. That's not the depressing part. The depressing part is that I don't know how to change it. I don't have the slightest clue.

I feel trapped.
I feel stuck.
I feel limited.
I feel drained.
I feel damaged.
I feel overwhelmed.
I feel defeated.

There's no manual or guide for life. Even self-help books are written by helpless people. A lot people come to be for help, answers or advice. I usually can help, or have answers or advice to give. However, when it comes to me, I'm left in the dark. This time I feel like I can't even help myself. I have questions that I can't figure out an answer to. I have advice that is irrelevant to me. This is the one time I wish I knew it all.

I WANT OUT!

I want out of this endless cycle of misery.

If I could, I would get a new life. However, is that life going to be worse than the life I have now? Is it a life that's not so emotionally draining? Will I have to go out and get wasted to drown my sorrows?


I've been questioning is this life really worth living. What makes it worth living?

That's a question I wish I knew the answer to.

Throughout my life, and even now, I've been told "if you want something, you can make it happen." Now, I'm not entirely sure if that's true.
MrShortStory MrShortStory
18-21, M
1 Response Jan 7, 2013

Hi there. I read your story, Feeling trapped is a horrible thing. That's how I feel, depressed, ******** of my freedom. I do have to say the people that have responded to my post on EP have been really helpful, I do hope I can be of some help to you. Or at least give you something to think about.
I don't know how old you are, but if you are young, being young can be stressing, although there is still to much to try, to live, to experience and if you think any other way, your short changing yourself.

I understand, always being able to help others and how helpless you can feel if you can't do anything for yourself.
But it's ok, to ask for help sometimes, to not always have the answers. We're not suppose to, if we did things would be so much easier. It's overwhelming to feel all these emotions, to not have answers. I have learned that we need patience and courage. We must continue on, even if we aren't in control. It's ok, to let go a bit and let someone else take the wheel.
If you have kids, they are the only reason alone you need to want this life. Of course, if not remember you will be able to annoy your family and do things differently. Even if there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel.
You have to be strong and although at times we don't feel strong. Keep your head above water and you will rise and pick yourself up again.
Think positive and if you are religious and have faith, pray.
If you need to talk am here.