If Just One Thing Or One Area Would Be Okay

that's a good idea morgan because when I look at everything I get too overwhelmed but if I could concentrate on one thing...yes maybe that would help for sure!

I know how things can look when you get under the weather, and I have a tactic that helps, even though it doesn't tackle the underlying brain chemistry of the problem. Instead of concentrating on what feels wrong in your life, look at what's going right, and how it could be better. In your story, you described a lot of wonderful things you have going for you. Sure, things might not be perfect, but they could be a lot worse. It sounds like you're moving your life in the right direction, and you should be proud of that, and confident that things are getting better.

-take a class or hobby, start the interview process. You sound depressed so maybe meds would help. You obviously like good conversation not small talk - me neither - so that is o.k. Do you have a dog/do you journal? Pray for like minded friends in or out of church. I am so sorry. Hope you take a step on the right path soon.x

UPDATE: I still feel somewhat trapped I cannot lie there. But my father has passed away and though I miss him so much I am also relieved his suffering is done. Anyway who has journeyed with a loved one through terminal illness knows how exhausting and frustrating it is. So many ups and downs, and though you would not trade one second that you had with them, it is so hard to watch them suffer and not be able to help or fix.

Another important change is that my best friend that I had been really in a rollercoaster ride of a friendship with...we had a falling out when I finally confronted her on some issues. She was pretty hurtful towards me and did not deal with the issues I brought up but threw a lot of stuff at me which I now realize where defensive responses. And we haven't communicated in a few months and with that has come some relief. Although I am still angry with her and need to work on that, I now understand that I deserve a best friend who is actually there for me and who treats me with respect. The way this friend was treating me was beginning to give me a skewed perspective on how others would treat me. I had no idea the amount of toxins that was spreading in my mind until the relationship broke off. So for any of you out there who have a toxic relationship, take a hard look at things. I'm not advocating ending relationships, but sometimes you have to step back. I'm really glad I did. Soooo glad!!! It's opened the door for new friends and while I have a ways to go until I have someone I'm super close to, I am working on bringing new folks into my life and that has been very good. So that's it for me for now. Hang in there everyone and God watch over you.

maybe u r doing exactly what he wants you to do. get out of debt slowly with no distractions--i have many 'acquaintance friendships' like you, not close, just there. hang on in there and get financially ok. :)

And in all these I have a clear understanding in my brain that it is God I should be turning to to solve these things. And when I'm in church that seems easy when singing praise songs and surrounded by Christians.

This feeling you get in the above scenerio is not turning to God for your problems- it is a blessing for being in that situation, but in real life you need to methodically look at your life, set some goals and strive for them one step at a time until you have developed a solid foundation for your life in all areas- once you have done that it gets easier and you don't have to be so carefully focused- but for now you must develop the discipline to do this. If you do not have goals that you are completing a step towards each day on a regular basis you will not be able to get you out of this rut. Mind you if you have some sort of charming charisma (and it sounds like you have the American sort) than if you stay there long enough someone will come along and bail you out- and you probably won't notice it wasn't you that got yourself out- if you are that sort of person. But the best way for most people to get out of ruts is to build their circumstances, character, and values themselves through goals that you strive for daily (and of course in doing this you will meet people as well and develop friendships along the way). If you do not know how to set goals, just make a list of everything wrong in your life and steps you can start taking to improve things. You will be happy with every little step you achieve.

Misfortune is not our fault, but we can change our circumstances. ALL people have untapped power of choice. Meanwhile as you are moving to improve your life, accept all your circumstances as they are and see the beauty in them- there really is beauty in ALL circumstances and how they look actually depends on how you frame them. Some of the most well known paintings are of the most destitute people and circumstances in the world. There is a sort of romanticism in them because they are unique situations and the people going through them can make whatever they want out of them as you attempt to work your way out of them.

I completely understand how you feel. You are definitely not alone. I feel like every area of my life isnt working either and I dont know how to change it.
It feels like my world keeps getting smaller and smaller.
I have lost so many of my friends and I dont know why?
I feel like nothing in my life is working and I can't be happy for other people b/c I feel like nothing is working out for me. I have a job that pays okay but I dont really have great relationships with anyone. My social life is barely non existent. My love life... ha, whats that?
My family life is awful and I feel very alone.
Its really hard b/c its difficult to know where to turn.
My life feels extremely empty and without love. It feels like there isn't any meaning to it... it feels like I am just existing but not really living...
So I definitely can relate to you and what you are going through. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. There are other people who are dealing with the exact same things.

Good luck, I've been left alone far too long now I think.

When I read your story, it was as if I had written it myself. There are a few differences in my life but the end is the same. Because of my health, I can't work so my days are filled by sitting in my apartment watching TV, unable to participate in most physical activities and feeling lost to the world. Like you, I have thought about finding God again and returning to church but I don't even have the energy to do that now. In the last ten years my life has changed so drastically that I am finding it difficult to come to terms with it or even attempt to change it. Some would say that I am bitter and I can understand why they would have that opinion but they couldn't be further from the truth. I just don't feel that I have anything to offer. I know it will get better and I am trying to be optimistic, it's just hard sometimes.

Yeah, life is a big world out there. But remember that lady/man or girl/boy who smile or said something that stop your thoughts. OR what the guy on radio said. Or how you help that person when they needed someone most.
Don't you think they're the things that set you free.