Im Old And Ugly
I am forty years old and have been asked this question more times than I can count. I was not blessed in the genes category. Maybe I just dont know how to take care of myself. Growing up my mother kept me looking nice. Hair always done at the salon...healthy foods etc. However when the job was turned over to me taking care of myself...I fail miserably. Too much junk food...my hair never looks nice anymore...my skin is always a mess. In short, Im ugly.
I have extremely oily skin that still breaks out. So there is alot of scarring. At forty, my skin certainly doesnt break out the way it used to, but its not smooth like other adults. I hate myself. All of the women in my family are beautiful. Long gorgeous hair, beautiful skin. Im a pig..a creepy looking pig.
Yesterday I was at an event and a man was trying to sell some sort of specialized water. He pulled me aside and said "I dont want you to be offended.."
I knew what was coming.."But what is that on your face..what happened to your face..." I think its rude to ask that of an adult. Its not like Im not aware of my skin's condition. I happened to be feeling good about myself that day or at least trying to feel good. Lately I have actually been getting a couple of compliments on how my skin looks. So for him to do that in order to sell some crap...really made me angry !!!! Im just tired of being ugly. ugly women dont get spoiled by men...they get taken advantage of...ugly women are not popular...thats me....
Now that Ive been divorced for a few years, I have certainly gained weight. I would love to stay in my house and never leave...
Vote up! 1