Im Old And Ugly

I am forty years old and have been asked this question more times than I can count. I was not blessed in the genes category. Maybe I just dont know how to take care of myself. Growing up my mother kept me looking nice. Hair always done at the salon...healthy foods etc. However when the job was turned over to me taking care of myself...I fail miserably. Too much junk hair never looks nice skin is always a mess. In short, Im ugly.

I have extremely oily skin that still breaks out. So there is alot of scarring. At forty, my skin certainly doesnt break out the way it used to, but its not smooth like other adults. I hate myself. All of the women in my family are beautiful. Long gorgeous hair, beautiful skin. Im a pig..a creepy looking pig.


Yesterday I was at an event and a man was trying to sell some sort of specialized water. He pulled me aside and said "I dont want you to be offended.."

I knew what was coming.."But what is that on your face..what happened to your face..." I think its rude to ask that of an adult. Its not like Im not aware of my skin's condition. I happened to be feeling good about myself that day or at least trying to feel good. Lately I have actually been getting a couple of compliments on how my skin looks. So for him to do that in order to sell some crap...really made me angry !!!! Im just tired of being ugly. ugly women dont get spoiled by men...they get taken advantage of...ugly women are not popular...thats me....

Now that Ive been divorced for a few years, I have certainly gained weight. I would love to stay in my house and never leave...





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fatbutt fatbutt
36-40, F
5 Responses Apr 16, 2010

I definitely feel fat ugly and old.. I tend to become a victim to people who want something.. They will tell me things that makes me feel good like "You are handsome and a very beautiful person.." My heart melts when I hear those words but it's not long before they don't want to have anything to do with me anymore and that is after they got what they wanted.. I am 45 and everytime I look in the mirror all I see is fat, ugly and old.. Other people I see whether they are family friends or just strangers I see the most gorgeous sight before my eyes.. I have now vowed to myself that dating and having a relationship is just not worth it because when I start to date I get my heart broke into a million pieces and no one there to help me pick up the pieces of a heart that once was a whole.. This world I have seen can be a very cruel world.. :(

I am 46 and see I look ugly with dry old skin. The mirror does not lie. Why when we acknowledge the truth as it is we have to preface it as being depressed. I see me ugly. I no longer want to or feel to exercise like I did in my 20's or 30's. I just have no hopes or romantic dreams anymore because anyone would only want to be with young and beautiful. So what now?

Some people, no matter how old they get, never lose their beauty. It merely moves from their faces to their hearts.

I feel your pain!! I agree with the post previously. I try to make the best of it, yet today, are hard. I am 47 and feel ugly when I don't have any makeup on. I have a very ruddy complexion and I can only go out when I plaster tons of make-up on. I am 5'2" and weight propbably 205 pounds. Nothing fits my size or shape so I sit inside and dread going out unless I have to. I feel fat all the time. <br />
I am sooo depressed and have lost friends because I can't seem to go places with them. I am married to someone who I know doesn't really love me, although he says he does. I feel awful most of the time and now money is so tight I can't even get my hair done or get clothes that fit me cause it costs too much! I am sooo tired of feeling fat and ugly. I suffer from fibromyalgia and have pain all the time. Some days I can't get out of bed before noon because I hurt to bad. My kids run me ragged babysitting their kids. I love them dearly but it is hard sometimes to function. My 29 yr old daughter suffers from a personality disorder and is very mean to me sometimes. She refuses any medicine so I have to put up with her moods. I just try to trudge forward dreading ever effort to even shower some days. Funny thing is, when I have my face covered with make-up, I know I look pretty but I don't feel it cuz I hide the truth underneath the make-up. And when I dress up nice, I feel decent... not good but decent. I am getting old now so now I have to add that to my pile of flaws. See, I hope you feel a little better knowing there's always someone else out there feeling worse! Keep your chin up! In my case...double chin! LOL

Eh, so you're not the prom queen, bet you have other talents that would make me think you're even better than that, if you just try to discover them. If you're gonna stay indoors, make the most of it.