I Feel Ugly

I feel ugly a lot of the time. Especially when I'm in an intimate situation. I feel disgusting. And when my boyfriend doesn't want to be physical, I feel even worse.

I know I'm not the prettiest girl in the world. And I wouldn't be any worse for wear if I lost a few pounds. But that's not what really gets to me. The only time I feel beautiful is after sex. When I've gotten my way, because I pretty much have to beg for sex these days.

I feel so ugly on the inside because I feel that I need it to feel beautiful. Even my boyfriend said I had a serious problem, when I told him I got my self esteem from sex.

What kind of girl needs sex to feel beautiful that isn't completely ugly and broken on the inside? I'm foul.
absolutionist absolutionist
22-25, F
1 Response Sep 13, 2012

=( Im sorry. I dated a guy a long time ago that once handed me mouthwash before he would kiss me. I felt pretty degraded. You look nice in your picture.