How Society Breaks Me...

Ever had those days where you wake up feeling good. You look at yourself and you feel like you're looking great and after you get dressed and all that you look even better. But as soon as you set foot outside of your house all that greatness comes down...

No?

I do...Too often.

I get up with such a positive outlook on the day only to be looked at as if I'm some kind of alien. Now, I know I don't dress like many of the people living here. But, I don't want to have to. I want to be able to dress the way that makes me feel good about me! But whenever I do so, I get people looking at me funny. It's sincerely discouraging.

Young women look at me like I think I'm all that (little do they know how tiny I feel). Men look at me as if I'm from outer space. Older people look at me like I'm trash (sidenote: I'm not one to dress skimpy, I'm quite a prude). It just makes me feel hideous.

I often get complimented on my body, which I appreciate knowing how much it means to the people on this island to have such a body just by nature. But if I choose to not flaunt everything, does that immediately make me ugly? Does it make me less of a woman?

If only people knew how painful it can be...
Jeanellaisha Jeanellaisha
22-25, F
1 Response Sep 11, 2012

I have defiantly had days where I wake up feeling fine, positive even. Then something happens and another thing happens, it's like a snowball effect. don't let the stares bother you,,,