I Don't Know Why.

I don't know why sometimes I say hurtful things that I truly don't mean and then I can't take them back. and then is too late. I am not sure why I get this feeling inside of me where I need to push people away. Especially people whom I love being around and I don't understand why I feel the way I do.
yisi yisi
26-30, F
3 Responses Jan 18, 2011

I re-visit this comment today and I realize that I have been putting resistance on everything that I do. and that has caused me much grief. However, I accept today that I am who I need to be and that I have everything that I need to be happy with myself. And that it is coming from within myself .<br />
Thanks again.

Thank you that's exactly how I feel, protecting myself and undeserving at times.

Did something happen to you in the past, or something not so long ago, that made you feel <br />
bad / angry / ashamed / guilty / frustrated / sad ?<br />
It might be the reason why you're pushing people away. But I know from my own experiences, when I push people away it is because I don't accept and love myself for who I am.<br />
So, just like what kimmygary is advicing you, you need to learn to love yourself.<br />
You are perfect just as you are, you're only in need of more self confidence.