I'm AfraidMy vulnerabilities are making me feel weak right now. The simplest things could break me. I feel a little bit outside of my body, like I don't fit anywhere. I am uneasy, skeptical and afraid. I don't want to let anyone get too close because I don't want them to know.
I don't know how to get back to me, and I don't know how I've fallen so deeply into my darkness again. I am afraid to venture beyond my protective wall, not wanting to socialize and be free. They will see my weak spots, and I don't want them to take advantage of me. I don't like shutting people out, but I don't know how to let them in right now. I think I'm hurting over the fact that I have fallen backwards, and I don't want to let them see me fail again.
I am so afraid to fail and lose it all...
Lucidblue 36-40, F 2 Responses 0 Nov 1, 2011