Im Just A Little Girl.everyone knows that feeling. like no matter where you are, youre invisible. people ignore you. for me, thats especially true. i felt so normal, so plain. nothing ever happened to me. no friends, no invites, no school trouble, no relationships, no moving, no tragedy, nothing ever happened. i wanted to feel pain. so much it hurt. i was desperate for something to happen so that maybe one day... someone would look, and notice me there all alone, torn to the ground by sadness. i prayed to god... for pain.
he answered my prayer. i have depression. suddenly, my life turned upside down. i spend days up in my room, saying nothing, doing nothing, but staring out the window, and watching the rain. suddenly nobody understood me anymore. and so i made a mask. of a person i wanted to be. when people found out i was on medication... they were shocked. i was a sweet bright cute little innocent girl. but if anything is true...
the happiest person in the room, is usually the one suffering the most.
ive lost sight of my future. im on a path that keeps turning and twisting, and im scared. im scared im going to be out in the cold world alone and helpless. i hate it. i dont have any confidence or self esteem, i cant even rely on myself anymore. i dont know whats going to happen to me, and im frightened. nobody cares about the little girl in the back anymore. people dont want to waste their time on something as useless and weak as me. i just want somebody to reach into this hole ive dug, before i cant even dee the light anymore. im burying myself alive and i dont know how to get out of it. i cant do anything on my own. i dont believe in myself. and no one believes in me... either. im
soharu 16 11 Responses 0 Aug 11, 2010