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I'm Worthless

I guess it goes with having depression but I just feel so worthless and unimportant in this world. It feels like if something happened to me I wouldn't be missed and no-one ever notices me. I don't have any friends and I'm always alone, sometimes it feels like I might as well not exist. 
thesoundofsilence thesoundofsilence 18-21, F 60 Responses May 10, 2007

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I know how you feel I too have always felt the same way. But what you need to realize is that you have worth. You are a person who deserves respect and if you start thinking positively and allowed positive people in your life you would see the vast improvement

In this life we're all very different but one thing i've learn't is that its so easy to cut ourselves off when we're not feeling good about how we see ourselves, or how we feel about our own circumstances. I've been in some really low points and had been cut off from friends for many years, and then came away from that situation and it took some time to heal, and to learn to reach out to others. The thing about being by yourself and feeling bad about everything is you have no-one to pick you up and see things in a different light, i think you need more love in your life. What about starting a hobby class or new interest learning a new language for example or sewing or painting, then being able to share with others in a group. As for previous bad comment i wouldn't take any notice of that . you may have disablities, disorders, and limitations but you still have a good soul and thats what matters. Try making a list of things you enjoy, or have enjoyed in your past and see if theirs anything you can benefit from doing again.

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But you see, I really am worthless. I have a couple disabilities, learning disorders, mood disorders, physical limitations, etc. I have chosen not to have children b/c I can't even take care of myself. And I'm so emotionally, messed-up that I can't live w/ anyone else. I drive or push away everyone in my life- all my siblings, cousins, & eventually friends. I scrape by on disability & a small spousal support payment that just covers rent & meds. I am routinely unhappy, unsatisfied, divisive, & difficult. I've done therapy, medication, education, religion, etc. Not give me the divine purpose bs, that's all it is. For every good self-sacrificing thing I try to do in my community, I will find a way to **** it up. Life is a daily chore that exhausts me & beats me down & I want to be done w/ it. I simply want the autonomy to be able to take my life into my own hands. If you have the health & ability to work a job & support yourself, you have no idea what a gift that is. None.

I feel the same way. It's like I look back on my childhood and I feel like I was an awful child and that I continue to be an even more despicable adult. I think that's why I haven't had any kids. I'm afraid to reproduce. Like the last thing that the world needs is another one of me.
I promise you that you are not alone.

You are so wrong! God does not create "worthless" souls. Even the worst hobo has a beautiful, useful soul. And remember "A Stranger Is Just A Friend You Do Not Know"

That is such a useless response.

You aren't worthless. No one is. You are here on earth for a reason, to make a difference, to stand out. And if you are going through a tough time with depression, and that constant feeling of not being loved, go see someone about it. If you feel like its not getting better at all talk about it with a therapist or one of your parents. Trust me talking about it makes you feel better that its finally out there. It worked for me. And look I'm alive today :3 You would be missed, by this whole entire world if you passed away. So don't do it. I love you and Stay Strong!

thank you so much for this

HATTUSFORDAYS, YOU SHOULD GO TO HELL! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT SON OF A BICTH.

You are better than me man trust me

I think you are an amazing person, absolutely amazing... Just remember this you may feel alone but you have me and I'm sure a lot of other people love house and classify you as a friend.
And know this you would Be missed <3

Is there no admin on this site ???? Get hattusfordayyss blocked!

EVERYONE ON IN THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF WORTHLESS!!!!!! you should all just kill yourselves! nobody would miss you, you ugly misfit scums. **** you all!!!! go to hell! WHITE POWER!!

You berate these people and call them worthless, yet you're the one who has enough time to get online just to insult people. If that's not worthless I don't know what is. What now, are you gonna get back on here and say " F U," or something equally moronic? Probably.. you're nothing but a predictable douchebag with the intellect of a gnat. Shoo, pest, and go somewhere else.

Wow what an idiot!!!

U seem like a very stu-pid human being.... Toxic mouths of madness do nOt belong here!!!!!

This guy (Hattusfordayyss) seriously needs our prayers. Please I just prayed for him everybody should do same.

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You and I and people like us are at the bottom

just dont drink blood and marr your wrists :/

For all you that have problems thinking that you are worthless ect.. you are not...
**** the haters.. be yourself and dont give a **** what people may think of you at the end of the day if you do give a **** then you are just letting them win,,

kill yourself.. NOW!

shut the hell up..

YOU'RE A STUPID WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH. YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF TOO!!

Hi. My names Elizabeth.

I got picked on every day. Emotionally and Physically. I hated my life then. I attempted suicide many times before. Mostly trying to take pills. I cut. I still do. I changed schools when I couldnt take it anymore. But that didnt help. I couldnt trust anyone at my new school. So I didnt talk much. They made fun of me. For all they know I could be a mute. But I'm not. I really like to sing. But I havent told anyone. Because I'm too scared they'll judge me even more. I still don't talk. I still get bullied. I still cut. I still attempt. I still starve myself. I still have an eating disorder. But I also still write the word Strong on my wrist with sharpie to remind myself that life isn't easy, but it's supposed to be worth it. And that's Probably the reason I'm still here,sharing my story with the world.

Even though the people hate me. I still try to help the people who are like me and you. Cause were not alone. I help them get through it. Because I don't want them to end up like me: Worthless,stupid,Pathetic.


This is me. And guess what? I'm only 11. Ya. You read right.

Just remember this... You aren't ugly, Society is.....

how the hell are you only eleven?

KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!

when i was eleven i had been with three different families in the same year
i cut
i drink
i smoke

I am a worthless girl with a broken heart
i am 18 now i still cut i still drink and i still smoke

A girl is never worthless. She. can give life and mothers are priceless!

you shut the **** up! you think this is a mother ******* joke?

I dont joke I'm being serious i am an 18 year old cutter! damn dude and i thought I was bad

That's right there's always someone who has it worse!

Elizabeth, dear girl,

You ARE NOT WORTHLESS. You are having issues; my son did; he is now 38, in college and working for a good company. Your emotions are clouding your judgment. Sing, sing in the shower, sing in the rain, sing whenever you have the chance. Sing in your heart and sing in your mind. You are one of God's children; and He did not create you worthless. As for all these ignorant people telling you to hurt yourself. DO NOT listen to them; they get their kicks hurting others. That is their problem, not yours. Believe in yourself; there is a diamond hiding inside you...

My name is Lucas your comment inspired me to tell my story

I have grown up in foster care for my mom beat me till I couldn't move and my brother molested me for three years......after I first entered foster care I did feel unloved and worthless I turned to cutting,alcohol,and drugs for an escape well at the time I was doing all of that I was 15 and I attempted suicide and almost succeeded for I gut the main vein on my left wrist (and you people dissing her grow up people) but Ik what it is like and it is hard I'm now paralyzed from the waist down from drugs I am worthless where as u Elizabeth are a strong independent girl

Be strong Elisabeth! Stay alive no matter what happen.

I'm only eleven, and I didn't let myself get bullied. I do go through pain, though. It is hard to explain my feelings, but it feels as if being away from a certain person stabs me through the chest like a knife. I have wanted to die a few times.. I have cursed the world, but I learned something.
Never Give Up, no matter how many insults are thrown at you, no matter how many times you are hurt. Ignore the people who insult you, and open up. Trust me, I know you can find at least one person who is willing to love and respect you. You just have to find them.

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It seems that sometimes no matter how much progress you think you've done it does not change your loved ones perception of you.

I went to war, twice; I have a medal with valor to prove it. I thought I was fine, years went by, I had my baby while stationed in Europe. Loneliness led me to the wrong type of friends. One night of partying ended what would have been a great career. My life has been a struggle since then.
I moved back home with my mother and child. It seemed like a great idea at the time, but it is my own private hell. I get berated, talked down and told at every convenience how I am not good enough; worthless. I sucked it all in, the pain, the hurt, the insecurities as a form of self punishment. I knew that it couldn't last forever.
Two years after coming back home, I reconnected with my ex husband. We completely hit it off and again started a romance. But he was married and stationed in Central America. So he partied, lied and continued to stay married all the while telling me that when he came back state side we would be together, us three. He told me he would help me back on my feet. So I started to get it in my head to leave all the pain and stress from my mother's house behind. Saying goodbye to family and friends, prepping my daughter to a new beginning.

I wouldn't be posting on here if everything had worked as planned.

He changed his mind. You see, I could not get a job in the place that I was leaving. I started becoming worthless to him. I did not have enough money so I became not good enough for him. He believed it so much that he started talking to people, meeting them while I was at my mother's house crying, depressed, broken.
We got back together again, but our relationship just seems to be a ***-for-tat. I do his online studies, he fixes my car. I drive up to see him in the home that would have been ours, I clean and do for him what I think he wants, he makes sure to send me money for gas.
We love each other but I am still worthless to him.
He is not the smartest, nor the most handsome man that I have ever met, but to me he is worth everything, even my self-worth.
I have nothing, which is what I am to him.
He says he is getting tired of providing for me, but he only provides for me things that would benefit him; things to not make him feel guilty.
I teach him how to learn but I can't teach him how to feel.
I can't live in inconsistencies.

after my dad died, i went to chronic ************ for comfort. i would beat my **** off sooooooooo hard

You guys think you're worthless? psh lmao , I dropped out of high school, work a full time job for minimum age( where only old people work btw, 20 yrs old) I have no true friends and a **** load of bills. Can't find a girlfriend to save my life, have no car and I don't even go out, I just stay inside and play games. I am the true definition of worthless

sir, you're worthless. thank you.

KILL YOURSELF!!!!!

its okay guys. everyone that has posted on here has either suffered with some sort of depression or anxiety. i went through that sort of phase after my move. i live in australia and i moved from W.A to QLD (from one side of the country to the other) a year after i got there, i lost my nan to cancer. she had been fighting it for a more than a year. i felt to bad because i didnt spend as much time with her as i should have and i miss her loads. we live near her old place and everytime i ride/walk/drive by, i feel the urge to cry (like i do right now) that was last year in august. it happened during school... i felt alone and felt like no one understood what i was going through. my grades dropped and i isolated myself from my friends a lot. but after a year, i got back into the swing of things. yes, it did take a while but now that i understand that she is in a better place now and that there are people to talk to (school councellors, parents, friends, family, loved ones etc). people do understand. you just have to find the right people. dont let go of your humanity guys. you are never alone. i know people go through loads of physical to try and cancel out the emotional pain they feel and what i say to that is dont. it makes things worse. because when you do it, you have to hide it and lets face it, it wont stay winter forever and you will eventually have to take your sleeves off. people will see your scars and scratches and cuts. they will comment, rumours will circulate and you will feel alone again. harming yourself only makes things worse. please, for everyones sake, dont do it. there are people everywhere for you. they will understand. i promise.

Hi :)<br />
I advise you to seek Islam. You will discover that you are not alone, Allah will always be with you. All I want you to do, is to just read and ask about Islam, and you'll know what I mean. If you have any questions ask me on lifes-a-swirl.tumblr.com/ask :) I'll be more than glad to help you!

allah's fake you stupid arabian bastard

I feel worthless all the time none existent to everyone it really hurts when loved ones fail to noticee our feeling and actions that just show they don't care at all I suffered with depression really bad and it just doesn't seem to go I will always feel alone but that just the way it wi be

probably cuz your ugly

i feel dat all d tym.....all d tym.....but d only dffrnce is dat u feel ur death vill go unnoticed....but i feel dat people who kn me vill make even more fun of me n my loneliness after my death...

I figured that what you feel is directly related to the environment and circumstances you are in. <br />
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For me I used to have a no complain life, where I used to drink and smoke weed everyday. I also had a full time job, and I almost had a semi balance lifestyle between my responsibilities and leisure living a happy life. <br />
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But I had to move back home to support my widowed housewife mother. Moving back with my mother is a choice I would not have made if my father didn't leave us this soon. But as I continued my habit of drinking and smoking, things started to get worse to the point, and I am now so ******* confused and depressed I don''t know if I should <br />
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1. Kill myself<br />
2. Leave my mother and go back to my comfy lifestyle<br />
3. Quit drinking and smoking<br />
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I must say that my drinking and smoking habit does not have any effect on my responsibilities, behavior, or in other way. Usually I would have 2 beers and a joint, at the end of the day to unwind myself. <br />
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But this has gone really really and REALLY ****** situation. My mother doesn't think I am good enough of a son, and I haven't done or doing anything worthwhile like the other kids on the neighborhood (I come from a descent family).<br />
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Every day when I wake up, I just feel like killing myself. And I think sooner or later I am going to make an attempt to end my life. And when I think what contribution I have to this world, I realize that its 0. I don't earn enough money to support the lifestyle I was brought up in so I still occasionally have to depend on my family savings for big investments (like down payment for a a house and car)<br />
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And nothing is making any sense to me right............And I wish I had a loaded gun to shoot myself or even better if the world came to an end.......

you should kill yourself you worthless troll!

i dont have depression and I know that everyone deals with feelings of worthlessness in their lives but sometimes its just hard when life deals you crap cards over and over again. I know you have to fight through it but god, its hard. I come from a loving family but an over achieving one. I tried to get into a good college but failed more than once. My grades are average, my college is average, im single, have never been in love, and well over all i just feel - average. I think that for someone who expects more out of life and feels like they've worked for it , being average is probably the worst thing ever. one of the worst feelings ever is where you know that you've tried your best and... failed anyway. There's no excuse of 'laziness' or 'it wasn't really my thing', its just plain ' you're not good enough,'. to deal with that kind of constant feedback ( from unis, teachers, grades, the opposite sex) is really difficult. So yeah, today i feel worthless.

I feel the exact same. No one at my school notices me. The group of people I guess would call "friends" probably hate me too. They always talk crap about me in my face, and I guess I take it because I don't have any other friends. But who would want to be friends with me anyway? I'm fat, I'm a loser. Hell I try so hard and I can't even get good grades in school. The only reason I put up with all of this is to make my parents happy. I just want one person in this world to tell me they care about me. Or their proud of me. But it's never enough. I go to a private school that costs $15000 a month. Just to make my dad happy. I pull a 3.19 GPA and it's not enough. I try and I try but even my own ******* teachers can't stand me. So no you are not worthless. Read about my pathetic useless life, and then you can truly understand the definition of worthless.

they dont notice you because you're gross and worth absolutely nothing!

I feel like that now, which is why I googled this. To see is someone had suggestions. <br />
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Some things trigger these emotions. Like someone who you thought was a loyal friend deleting you on facebook. It hurt. It triggered all these other emotions.<br />
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I went through a divorce 3 years ago. I never expected the divorce. I was married for only a year to a pastors son. I just knew I was going to be by his side for the rest of my life. I changed my identity for him. He left because he left bruises on my son (I had a son from rape when I has just turned 18), CPS took him and I couldn't get him back till the divorce was finalized. It took 9 months.<br />
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5 months later a drunk driver t-boned me and I flipped 3 times into oncoming traffic. I broke my neck.<br />
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Not too long ago, I decided to date again. He was amazing. He was separated for 2 years and going through a divorce. He then realized after our hearts and both of our kids were involved that he needed time to heal from the divorce. After he had previously told me he was healed. So I was hurt times 10. Ugh, I'm so broken.<br />
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So I survived through so much, My heart is so many bits a pieces. I feel like I am falling apart. So much had happened in my life, I am beginning to lose hope. <br />
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I'm losing me.<br />
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Help

ll I can say is you are not alone. this is I think how alot of people with depression feel. so take heart that you are not alone, many of us hear will never come to the place in life to make a mark in life for the future . orry I can't be more helpfull. I am just trying to come to terms of being a lost soul.

i'm not dippressed or anything its just people have told me im worthless and that im no one. i have no friends and im having to go to school 5 days a week knowing im going to get picked on. ive been bullied since i was 5 years old and i ve done nothing about it. but then again its always different people who are doing this to me. theres like 15 to 20 people and i just put up with it. i really need some advice. sometimes i just wish all of that would just go away. i hope sometime they will realise that everyone has a limit and all of them have passed the line. i just hope that one day i will be able to keep my friends and no one will pick on me like they have.

I feel alone and left of everything all the time I have for 7 years its like a lifestyle to me now. I just recently lost my gf today. It sucks cuz she told me tht she didn't like me at first and she said used me in the begining. It hurts a lot and I my cousin just died too, he died yesterday. I don't know what do now, I really don't know. If I should be depressed our be happy but I really can't be cuz I lost the people who make me happy. Now I'm just alone I don't have really anyone to talk to. It really sucks. And I just came here to this website to meet people who have the same feelings. My number is 702-416-3598 send me txt so we can talk and see if we can help eachother

I feel alone and left of everything all the time I have for 7 years its like a lifestyle to me now. I just recently lost my gf today. It sucks cuz she told me tht she didn't like me at first and she said used me in the begining. It hurts a lot and I my cousin just died too, he died yesterday. I don't know what do now, I really don't know. If I should be depressed our be happy but I really can't be cuz I lost the people who make me happy. Now I'm just alone I don't have really anyone to talk to. It really sucks. And I just came here to this website to meet people who have the same feelings. My number is 702-416-3598 send me txt so we can talk and see if we can help eachother