What's Wrong With Me?

I'm living in a strange parallell universe where I'm being nice to people, trying to be a decent person and generally doing my best and I get the strangest reactions from people. Only at the school today I walked over to some of the other mothers and one of them gave me the dirtiest look when I arrived. This is not the first time this has happened and I'm fairly sure I did nothing to deserve it.  That kind of thing happens all the time where I'll be going along minding my own business and get a look from someone I don't really even know that well or only in passing.  

Also today I was at the hairdressers and the girl doing my hair is so unfriendly. She will answer a question if I ask her one but rarely asks me one, even when I was pregnant and had my baby, she never once asked me whether I had a boy or a girl. Today I discovered that customers are entitled to a free colour every fourth visit but she never told me this. I'm obviously giving off some strange vibe, I look in the mirror and I think I look normal, I'm not bitchy or thinking bad thoughts about people. So what is it???'

 

 

larak larak
36-40, F
2 Responses Feb 17, 2010

I get those feelings too, especially when I'm depressed. Its like our perception is totally different than others. We only see the bad things not the whole picture. Not only that, but the bad things become magnified. This is the chemical side of depression. Its like putting on a pair of glasses that magnify all the wrong things.<br />
Also, if the other mother gave you a dirty look, it is her problem. <br />
I'm working on not letting other people determine my worth. Its a hard habit to break especially when we have the negative glasses on. But at least it gives me a slogan to hang on to.<br />
Hope you feel better soon!

I get those feelings too, especially when I'm depressed. Its like our perception is totally different than others. We only see the bad things not the whole picture. Not only that, but the bad things become magnified. This is the chemical side of depression. Its like putting on a pair of glasses that magnify all the wrong things.<br />
Also, if the other mother gave you a dirty look, it is her problem. <br />
I'm working on not letting other people determine my worth. Its a hard habit to break especially when we have the negative glasses on. But at least it gives me a slogan to hang on to.<br />
Hope you feel better soon!