I Dont Know What To Do

Well im really been messing up everything big time. I dont even know why i do it. I wish that i can press a rewind button. I do things that i do not want to do. I know it is only me that can change things but i tried & i cant. I sometimes think about suicide just so i can make everything go away . Everything in my lifehas turned upside down. I dont think that i can take anymore bad things happening. I feel like i lost it totally so im not sure what to do.
kmn4 kmn4
36-40, F
May 20, 2012