The Most Beautiful Girl I've Ever Seen.
It was January 30th 2010. I woke up in the morning to go to the jazz band competition at my school. We performed fairly early, but since it was at my school, I had to come back and do a work shift to keep things running smoothly. I was assigned the judges assistant, which meant I had to sit and watch the bands perform, and then when the judges were done filling out the ballots, I brought them to the center office.
One band down, several more to go. The second band came out, and within the trombone section, I layed eyes on the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I couldn't stop looking at her throughout the whole performance. Then, which seemed like no time at all, they were done, and left the stage. I was just sitting there, thinking about how beautiful she was.
About 1 month later, not a single day had gone by where I haven't thought of her. But luckily, there was another band event, about an hour drive in a school bus and we were there. We got there just in time to warm up and get in line and wait to enter the performance room. It just so happens that the same school that the beautiful girl goes to, performs right before us. And there she was again, more beautiful then the first time I saw her. Her school walked passed us right into the performance room, and once again I was stuck there, just thinking about this beautiful girl. Later that day, she performed a solo there, and I found out her name by looking at the front table that had the list of every soloist that performs that day.
Several months later, still not a single day has passed without me thinking of her, and I thought I might try to find her on face book. I did, and I was very happy. Although I didn't know what to do from here, because her privacy settings were set so that only her friends could send her messages. I thought I might just wait till another band competition next year, perhaps I'll meet her.
About two months later, still thinking about her literally every day, I became impatient, and decided to send her a friend request. I wasn't sure if she would accept it since she doesn't know me, but I couldn't take it anymore. I fell in love with her seven months ago when I first saw her, and I wanted to meet her so bad that I gave it a try. A couple hours later, I opened the login screen to facebook, typed in my email address and password, but before I pressed login, I said a little prayer, praying that she accepted it, and that I might be able to meet her. Believe it or not, I logged in and I had a notification. I pressed on it, and there it was in print: "******* ******* has accepted your friend request". I was so happy, I put the laptop down, went outside and literally screamed with joy, because I finally have made some sort of contact with the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.
Finally, I came inside and looked at her profile. The first thing I saw was that she was in a relationship. It really wasn't that big of a deal then, because I was just happy to have some sort of way to talk to her for the first time in my life.
The next day, I logged in and went to her profile and looked at pictures of her, because if you were in love with a girl that lived 30-40 miles away, pictures are the only way to see her, and because i thought about her every day. After looking at several pictures, I was falling more and more in love with her. So I decided to send her a message, saying that I thought she was very beautiful, but I also made it clear that I didn't want it to seem like I'm intruding on her relationship, but I just want her to know that I think she was beautiful. Later that night, I looked and I had one message in my inbox. There was a message from her that simply said "Thank you". I know I probably shouldn't have expected much more, since she is in a relationship, but I just wish I could talk to her more.
I honestly don't know what to do now. I feel depressed and i have no energy to do anything because she is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, I fell in love with her the first time I saw her which was seven months ago, but i don't know what to do. Not ONE single day has gone by where I haven't thought of her. I guess what's making me depressed is the thought that she has a boyfriend, but I'm in love with her and there's nothing I can do. I can honestly say that I will never get over this girl, and I don't think I will ever love anyone but her. I wish I could do SOMETHING, but i don't know what. I want to talk to her, but from the way she said thank you in that message, it looks like she has no interest in getting to know me. It's not that I want her to break up with her boyfriend, and i'm not trying to intrude on her business in a relationship...I just wish I could meet her and talk to her. That would make me feel TONS better.