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The Most Beautiful Girl I've Ever Seen.


It was January 30th 2010. I woke up in the morning to go to the jazz band competition at my school. We performed fairly early, but since it was at my school, I had to come back and do a work shift to keep things running smoothly. I was assigned the judges assistant, which meant I had to sit and watch the bands perform, and then when the judges were done filling out the ballots, I brought them to the center office. 
One band down, several more to go. The second band came out, and within the trombone section, I layed eyes on the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I couldn't stop looking at her throughout the whole performance. Then, which seemed like no time at all, they were done, and left the stage. I was just sitting there, thinking about how beautiful she was. 
About 1 month later, not a single day had gone by where I haven't thought of her. But luckily, there was another band event, about an hour drive in a school bus and we were there. We got there just in time to warm up and get in line and wait to enter the performance room. It just so happens that the same school that the beautiful girl goes to, performs right before us. And there she was again, more beautiful then the first time I saw her. Her school walked passed us right into the performance room, and once again I was stuck there, just thinking about this beautiful girl. Later that day, she performed a solo there, and I found out her name by looking at the front table that had the list of every soloist that performs that day. 
Several months later, still not a single day has passed without me thinking of her, and I thought I might try to find her on face book. I did, and I was very happy. Although I didn't know what to do from here, because her privacy settings were set so that only her friends could send her messages. I thought I might just wait till another band competition next year, perhaps I'll meet her.
About two months later, still thinking about her literally every day, I became impatient, and decided to send her a friend request. I wasn't sure if she would accept it since she doesn't know me, but I couldn't take it anymore. I fell in love with her seven months ago when I first saw her, and I wanted to meet her so bad that I gave it a try. A couple hours later, I opened the login screen to facebook, typed in my email address and password, but before I pressed login, I said a little prayer, praying that she accepted it, and that I might be able to meet her. Believe it or not, I logged in and I had a notification. I pressed on it, and there it was in print: "******* ******* has accepted your friend request". I was so happy, I put the laptop down, went outside and literally screamed with joy, because I finally have made some sort of contact with the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. 
Finally, I came inside and looked at her profile. The first thing I saw was that she was in a relationship. It really wasn't that big of a deal then, because I was just happy to have some sort of way to talk to her for the first time in my life. 
The next day, I logged in and went to her profile and looked at pictures of her, because if you were in love with a girl that lived 30-40 miles away, pictures are the only way to see her, and because i thought about her every day. After looking at several pictures, I was falling more and more in love with her. So I decided to send her a message, saying that I thought she was very beautiful, but I also made it clear that I didn't want it to seem like I'm intruding on her relationship, but I just want her to know that I think she was beautiful. Later that night, I looked and I had one message in my inbox. There was a message from her that simply said "Thank you". I know I probably shouldn't have expected much more, since she is in a relationship, but I just wish I could talk to her more.
I honestly don't know what to do now. I feel depressed and i have no energy to do anything because she is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, I fell in love with her the first time I saw her which was seven months ago, but i don't know what to do. Not ONE single day has gone by where I haven't thought of her. I guess what's making me depressed is the thought that she has a boyfriend, but I'm in love with her and there's nothing I can do. I can honestly say that I will never get over this girl, and I don't think I will ever love anyone but her.  I wish I could do SOMETHING, but i don't know what.  I want to talk to her, but from the way she said thank you in that message, it looks like she has no interest in getting to know me.  It's not that I want her to break up with her boyfriend, and i'm not trying to intrude on her business in a relationship...I just wish I could meet her and talk to her.  That would make me feel TONS better.

haggman7 haggman7 16-17, M 6 Responses Jul 19, 2010

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Well this response is three years too late but oh well. Ya, right now I'm going to school with the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my entire life. Her face, perfect skin, personality, everything about her I just love. Unortunately she is in a relationship with someone that I think doesn’t appreciate her how he should from some stories she has told me, and that just pissed me off; but my best thoughts are with her in hope that it improves in order for her to be happy. And if I were to get with her, I wouldn’t want anything sexual between us or anything of that matter for two reasons 1) she is too beautiful and deserves to be treated with all respect and so she doesn't fell used. 2) She is too damn beautiful. I have trouble expressing my feelings in words so don't get the wrong idea from my first reason; I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I just wish that we could be next to each other in silence for a very long time so I could just stare at her beautiful face.

I have the same situation but I met throat beautiful girl I've ever seen in kindergarten and have known her ever since. My shyness prevented me from asking her out or telling her how I feel. Now its 8the grade, I don't know what high school she is going to, and I fear that I will never see her again. Im really depressed. What makes it even weirder is that I can't find her on any social network, I also don't have her phone number. I love this girl so much.
:'(

Have you seen her yet??....

Wow- your story is so amazing I had no idea guys felt that way sometimes- I thought that was only in the movies- but what a beautiful sotry it was awesome to hear how you changed your life for the better. I just want to encourage you to be friends with her too- b/c you guys are prob young- and like Gerald said above- let things go and they will work out if meant to be- meanwhile you can always be friends- and friendship is a beautiful thing- I have no doubt that this whole experience for you was a divine gift and you will learn more deeply about love-<br />
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And I also want to encourage you to embrace unconditional love. Love for another with no thought of what you get in return- I find this keeps depression away.<br />
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Love always,<br />
Lady Suki

Wow man, that honestly made me feel really good. Believe it or not, i sent another message to her shortly after i wrote this story. It was really long, and i just told her how i first saw her in January seven months ago, and told her that she was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. She told me she really appreciates it and that becoming friends is a possibility. As soon as i read that, I was sooo happy. I didn't feel depressed anymore. I haven't talked to her since then, and that was about a month ago. But i'm living life normally now. Sure, everyday i still think about her, but it doesn't make me sad anymore. Now I am actually just waiting it out. Because I know I'll probably see her at a band competition this fall and I'm definitely going to say hi to her and try to have a conversation with her.<br />
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By the way. One thing i didn't mention in the story is how she's changed my life. When i saw her in January, i weighed 223 pounds. I was in horrible shape. But after i saw her, i wanted to meet her so bad, but i was tired of what i let myself become and i really wanted to look good when i met her. I started working out, and eating better. And through the course of all these months, to this day i have lost about 60 pounds. That girl honestly changed my life. She was the motivation that forced me to workout literally everyday, and take care of myself better. I didn't tell her that part in the message because i think it's the most amazing thing that's happened to me, and she caused it. I'm going to wait to tell her that in person when i finally meet her.<br />
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Once again though, thanks a lot. I seriously got butterflies in my stomach when i read your comment man. Thanks again!

Man I really feel bad for u.....but if u honestly feel that way then try and talk to her. I used to feel the same way about this girl in school but the only thing that kept me from talking to her was because she was the class president and he was an athlete, I knew she liked me and I'm sure she still does but I felt they were perfect for eachother and I didn't deserve her as much as he did. I didn't want to ruin what they had because I knew he was a good guy. I think me n u are alike buddy. I don't want to sound cheesy but if u love her then let her go, and if its ment to be then just wait it out and it'll happen eventually. Hey that's wat I did and now I'm with her, come to find out he cheated on her twice last year. They broke up and I was the first person she came to and that all happened without me doing a thing. keep ur head up and hit me up when u need to talk. Gerald231993@gmail.com