Realized It All a Little Too Late
Growing up with this guy "D" that I have known since I was like 5 years old, we have been literally best friends through everything.. He moved away 2 years ago, and we still keep in contact, but very rarley. So my freshmann year I really started to realize alot when he started going out with my best friend. I hated it, i actually beat her up over it.twice. Growing up everyone always use to say things like us getting married, and how in love we were. I dont know if he was, but i didnt think i was. I ended up being wrong. The more i realized that he liked other girls, the more jealous I would get. It was really sad to be honest, i have never been the jealous type. Anyways..my sophmore year He moved, and we still talked CONSTANTLY! everyday for a couple hours, texted every minute of everyday..then, he got a girlfriend. ANd it stopped. So after about 2 months, i met this one guy, and we began dating..A couple months later I get a call from "D" telling me he was coming to town for christmas.. I must admit, i almost had a heart attacc i was so happy to hear that. So he always comes to our house and makes an appearance, which he did this time around. We ended up spending the whole night on the couch talking and ended up kissing. just one single kiss. What a guilty pleasure. I had also found out he & that girl broke up. But I was with that guy still.. I told "D" i would break up with my boyfriend, but we had both agreed we couldn't work out cause he lived too far away. Soo, I shrugged it off again like maybe my fasination with him was just a faze.. So a year and a half later I am still with the same guy and still talking to "D" every here and there. ANd now he is with this one chicc, who he has been with for i think about 4 or 5 months..Idk..I dont really care. lol... but latley I have been dreaming about him and just super hard core missing him more than ever. like I was just talking to him a little bit ago and he made a remark on how beautiful i was, which he rarely does.. But it made me feel good, but it also confused me hecca. i am seriously stucc, I would immed. leave my boyfriend if me & D could ever work out.. I finally realized I fell in love with my best friend, but it just might be a little too late..