Not Just A Friend

When I met Ryan this year at college, we had so much in common. We clicked instantly. I could talk to him for hours and hours about the most random things. He knows my entire life and I know his. We're best friends, and I never really saw him as anything more than that...or so I thought. Ryan has many female friends, and it's obvious why: he's so tall and handsome. Although we are best friends, we get into so many arguments with one another. His words can be hurtful sometimes. I usually just brush it off, but sometimes I wonder if our friendship isn't as great as I think it is. I have three really close friends up at college and all are also friends with him. And at some point this year they all slept with him. I try and not let it get to me, but I find myself jealous. I try not to be jealous, but it just happens. And at times I wonder why he's never made an attempt at me, yet he has with the others. And now I feel like I might be seeing him as more than just a friend and I don't know what to do because I don't want to ruin our friendship. Advice?
ajtaps ajtaps
18-21, F
Jan 22, 2013