A Real-life Modern-day Fairytale?

I am completely head-over-heels in love. I never thought it would happen. I'm not exactly what you would consider to be traditionally attractive. I'm pudgy and shy, my humor and playfulness can get obnoxious. I'm ridiculously clingy, especially since I lost my cousin a year and a half ago. No one ever showed any interest in me. And to make things more difficult and complicated, I don't have a primary sexual response. When I look at someone I don't feel sexually attracted to them. That feeling only comes later, much later, after I learn about them and find out their personality. Than it starts to develop. Well after 'normal' people would be willing to start a sexual relationship, I just start develping the interest. So, I've pretty much spent my life 'knowing' I would be alone and lonely, and be lucky to develop some decent friendships. Than along comes this girl. My cousin, before she passed away, made me join the dating site OkCupid. I did, didn't expect much, and got pretty much nothing for about a year and a half. Until last September, September 27th 2011. This girl, with no picture, sends me a PM on there just saying hey, in this cute little way that I've since learned is just her natural adorableness. She made me smile from that very first message, and she's kept me smiling ever since. I'm so glad it happened to be during a period when I was actively checking my messages on there that she PM'd me, because my life would be something completely different if I had missed that connection. We started chatting back and forth, and it didn't take very long to realize we had a LOT in common. Like pretty much everything. It took a couple months to stumble across a difference in opinions, and that was just that she prefers McDonalds french fries, while I prefer Burger King's :) We see life pretty much the same way, have so many similar views on different things, such similar interests. We say the same thing at the same time quite often, and pretty much seem to know exactly what the other is thinking, or what we mean when we say something and it comes out totally scrambled. No matter how much time we spend together, we don't get tired of each other, which is something totally new to me. I'm used to everyone getting annoyed with and tired of me. It's just, amazing. SHE is amazing, so amazing. I have never in my life met anyone so sweet, generous, kind-hearted, sensitive, genuine. If I could have plugged in what I wanted into a computer and had it create the perfect girl for me, it would have made her. From her persoonality, to her looks, to just everything. Is is really possible to just find EVERYTHING you wanted in your ideal person just all wrapped up in one? It took her awhile to send me a picture, but she did, and I my jaw dropped because this girl was just stunning, she was like exactly my physical ideal if I had to pick one. She has this beautiful long dark hair and gorgeous hazel eyes with long lashes, this crooked half smile, these slightly pointed canine teeth. Curvy body shape, the way her face, her body, her limbs are shaped. Just, every physical feature that ever struck me as being cute or pretty, she has all of them. Every personality trait I've ever wanted my girlfriend to have, she totally has them. She is caring, sensitive, genuine, trustworthy, concerned, empathetic, sympathetic, a total cat-lover, appreciative, thoughtful. She's really just, everything. I've never met anyone in my life and just felt like I have known them, and I never knew it was possible to develop a connection on the level that I have with her. The intimacy of the relationship is just striking to me, it knocks me over like a wave every time I think about it. There's really just nothing more I could ask for. I feel like I have known her forever, and that everything in my life before was just building up to meeting her. Like a puzzle piece clicking into place and revealing the picture. She amazes me more and more every day, and no matter how much I love her, every time I look at her, think about her, kiss her, hug her, I can feel myself loving her even more. And yeah, I know how stupid I sound with all this, but I just don't care. Sometimes maybe it really does just work out like this. All I know is that she is incredible and that I love her more than I ever thought it would be possible to love anyone <3
GlitterFlame89 GlitterFlame89
22-25, F
May 20, 2012