Never Thought It Would Happen

I'm one of these types that I don't have the confidence to open up to people or talk to them easily. Like the old saying never judge a book by it's cover. Well that's why I took to the internet. Some people today judge people quickly by their appearence before they get to know them. I've had that problem. Some people I talked to or met online was a mistake all except one. I had one to tell me I wasn't his type cause I was not skinny enough to suit him. The other one I text and we was supposed to meet up that evening until he found out that I was fat and he didn't want to meet up and I was already to go until then. Well the other two was a very huge mistake. One used me sexually and minipulated me and the other one used me as a one night stand and took away my virginity. I think about things like that everyday. What they done hurt me emotionally. About this time last year was when I was seeing this guy that took away my virginity. After the way he done me I walked around for a few weeks severley depressed. And the thing is nobody knowed I was this way so I kept it hidden well. The way guys saw me and treated me as a sexual object and then throwed to the side until needed left me a emotional wreck. After that one guy I knew that's all guys were going to see me as for the rest of my life. So I was considering suicide cause after what he done made me feel dirty and like a **** and that's not what I am. Then one night me and this other guy started talking on messenger. I guess you can say he saved my life and the thing is he doesn't even know it. He's the only guy I've ever had a real, normal conversation with that didn't involve sex. Don't get me wrong I love sex but that's not what life's about. I've never really told him that's what attracted me to him. I was getting tired of talking to guys and that's all they ever wanted to talk about. He's the only guy that's ever treated me right and not as a sex object. I've never really been use to guys being nice to me. Like opening doors for me, holding my hand, taking me out, taking up for me or buying me flowers until him. I could never get tired of being around him. He's the only person that's made me laugh and smile more in life than I ever have. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't in my life. And I can say today I'm married to him, we married this past June. He's the best thing that's ever happend to me. And I love him more than anything in the world. If it wasn't for him I'd probably be dead right now. I guess you can say he swooped in at the right moment cause I was on the verge of giving up. I have him to thank for.
tngurl25 tngurl25
26-30, F
Dec 14, 2012