Twice

And I don't even know if that's what it really is.

I don't even know if i did or not, but if the amount of pain and sorrow, this deep booming hurt and regret inside me that echoes with such loss is any indication, then i guess i did?

All I feel these days is misery.

I've lost him, and now maybe even as a friend.

I don't know what happened exactly but it is all falling apart in a huge fricken mess.

Tragic really.

So much of this mess didn't even have to happen.

We are so stupid with our words and reactions.

What a great sad loss here. :(

Cinderelly Cinderelly
36-40, F
9 Responses Feb 11, 2009

Someone online is only fictional if they are purposefully misleading. You don't need to have touched someone to genuinely fall in love.<br />
I am sorry you are hurting Cinder :(

I am sorry you hurt.

a three dimensional relationship...that is a great way to put it. Just move onto the real world, Cin. That is all you can do. Very wise comments here :-T

And another word about the 'fictional character'... yes.<br />
It is the perfect place for imagination, and idealism...<br />
which are wonderful things<br />
<br />
...but there needs to be some anchor of reality there, to <br />
keep certain dreams aloft...

=1<br />
thanks for that response...<br />
<br />
it wasn't love. not the way i know, anyway...<br />
<br />
<br />
But human interactions happen regardless of physicality sometimes... We connect how we connect...<br />
<br />
On the other hand, I realize that there is much missing, there, that is important to a 3dimensional relationship... <br />
<br />
besides, that's not the way I plan on falling in love.<br />
i know better.

exactly, the emotional involvement is not apart from the real one, i can relate to that coz i've lost one in the past too... but such loss was to my own decision, but now we're friends.... i'm sorry for you... but believe me... the saying goes, god closes a window but opens a door, i'm in a new relationship and is even better.... cheer up !!!

Yes. I'm not even sure which is worse. The pain is the same though.

:`(<br />
<br />
i am in so much pain.<br />
he meant so much to me.<br />
there was so much that was valuable here, and it didn't have to go down like that.

:`(