He Loves Me, But I Am Not In Love With Hubby
I have known my hubby since we both teenagers. We have been married for 11 years and known each other for 20. During the cost of our relationship, it was rough and I broke it off a couple of times. Then he pursued me and pursued me so I got back with him. Then he asked me to marry him and I did not listen to the voices in my head that told me not too. I heard my mother saying he is a good man do it. Then I broke it off during our engagement, and he pursued me again. Then we had our first child and I told him I want out and he made me feel guilty so I stayed and had another child. We now live in a beautiful family oriented neighborhood and I am not happy. I wake up every day angry and I snap at our two beautiful daughters. I flirt with other men and take their numbers. I am reckless. Now, I have fallen for this guy I barely know and my hubby knows and still wants to stay with me. He contacted the guy and warned him and the guy called the cops on us. However, it did not change my feelings about my marriage or my feelings for the guy.
I am not happy, but financially not stable to move. What do I do?