My heart has been so tangled for so long. My husband and I have only been married for 6 years but 4 years ago he left me 8 months pregnant and with a toddler. He decided he wanted to be single and have "fun" again. It took me a long time to get my mind and heart back on track but I finally did. He finally decided to come and beg to come home when our baby was 7 months old (first time he met her) I let him, but I just never loved him the same after that. I kept thinking that we just needed time and closeness but nothing worked. Then 2 years ago I met my best friends brother. There it was.. that feeling, that wonderful, amazing, butterflies in the belly feeling. At first it was this pull between us, one that only got stronger every time we saw each other. He became close friends with my husband and we tried to ignore and fight our feelings but nothing worked. I know that im not ready to break up my family and he isn't ready for the next step either but Its getting increasingly hard to hide my feelings. I really don't know what to do at this point.
aldinheart aldinheart
36-40, F
Aug 22, 2014