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Enjoying Insomia

Yes insomnia can be enjoyed. I know that sounds like a off the wall statement. For most of my life I have had sleep difficulties. A sounds night sleep has always been a luxury to me. What comes naturally for most people is often an elusive torture for me. Since I am one who doesn’t want to depend on medications, I have endured many nights of tossing and turning. Its especially galling when one is around others who are fast asleep. Few sounds are as irritating to me as someone snoring away nearby when I can’t get my eyes to close. Hopefully these modest words can maybe help those in similar situations. I have a tendency to wax poetic. Bear with me kind reader. I have come to view the hours not sleeping as my own personal time. Its time to muse and reflect. With the daylight distractions gone, I can focus on what’s good for the soul. I usually leave the computer and TV off. No need to be reminded of the daytime. It will be back soon enough. In the early AM, I can let my mind go to anyplace it wants. No one around to tell me to get to work. No criticisms or judgments. None of the of the daytime stress and anxiety. I can pretend and fantasize uninterrupted. I can listen to the harsh howling winds of winter or the gentle cooling breezes in summer. I can walk the darkened streets, hearing my footfalls gently echo off the silent houses. If it’s a clear sky, I take in the moon, planets and stars. I travel to the distant galaxies and solar systems. For a few brief moments, the universe is mine. No one interferes. No one can take these moments away from me. They are mine forever. As I have said I well know the torture of not sleeping well. I have learned to make the most of the long slow hours that never seem to end. I guess what I am trying to say is to make the most of ones time,no matter what the hour. It all ends too soon. Kind reader I hope you sleep well. If not,get up and enjoy yourself.

XendlessXurbia XendlessXurbia 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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Hey Velvet me again, I suffer with insomnia, I get a bit of sleep then BANG i'm wide awake so I spent the time on here, or reading! Kinda got used to it now!! Also Its my time!! Get ME?? Rest of day running round after daughter and co dependant fella!! So I'm with ya , See you later alligator, Cath

Who wants to be awake all night. I am hooked on legal drugs to sleep. I don't usually approve of 2 many meds 4 me but in this situation I need my sleep and would prefer it. I take a sleeping supplement Melatonin. <br />
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Without sleeping pills I don't sleep and get too edgy. I have had sleep problems, insomnia since I was a small child. I can't stand to be awake all night thinking and tossing and turning.

Wow, what a beautiful perspective. I think you've got an amazing attitude towards your insomnia. I imagine that it could be very easy to feel frustrated with fighting the same battles every night, but the way you take control of your situation is inspiring. Reading your desc<x>ription of your night time activities gave me goosebumps! I especially liked the part where you said: "If it’s a clear sky, I take in the moon, planets and stars. I travel to the distant galaxies and solar systems. For a few brief moments, the universe is mine. No one interferes. No one can take these moments away from me. They are mine forever." That must be an incredible feeling. Thank you for sharing.

I too have delt with sleepless nights. Have so since I was 12. I love what u wrote here. Its nice to see it that way. I have also found things to do when others are sleeping. My husband falls asleep as soon as he lays down. I hate that lol. But something I write and other time I come here and read. Thankful I have been able to sleep going on three weeks now. Everynight is a battle won. Thxs for the read :)