It is so hard to wake up in the morning and do anything. I feel like no matter what I do I will always have this cloud of sadness in my life. I try so hard to rise above it and sometimes I do and sometimes I don't it is an neverending thing for me. But what is worse then the depression it is the lonliness in my life. I am not a picky woman by any means but I just have chosen to not be with a man who won't treat me well and I haven't met anyone in along time that would be that someone for me. I am so lonely I can bust with it. I am scared I will become and old maid and die old and alone. I just don't want that to happen but so far I haven't gotten rid of the loneliness.