Depression,menopause And Booze

I have set here day in and day out it seems by myself. He can be in the other room but we dont talk or smile or have that special look anymore! Over the last couple of years his internet has become number one in his life. I have been so lonely that booze has become my best friend. On top of everything i have been going threw menopause. Lucky me. I have been made to feel useless and not wanted. I was trying to end my life cause he is everything to me. My drinking became worse,, didnt know if i was coming or going! All i wanted was to be loved and needed by him but i felt he threw me to the curb. When you have these three things going on believe me, your mind is out of control and you dont know what you are doing half the time. I guess i need to put my faith back into god more cause i felt he gave up on me! So here i am waiting on the lord to help me get through this!!! I figured he is all i have to comfort me right now. Dont get me wrong, i love my husband but feel he loves the computer and his friends more. I keep asking why me? I realized i gave up and have for almost 5 years now. I know i am a good woman and i can do this, i just need god to help me and i am asking him before its to late.
kiki1956 kiki1956
56-60, F
2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

My dear Kiki, there I one thing I know about God he never gives up on anyone. He that's us make our own choices good or bad but He is always there to help pick up the pieces. It is through His grace that we are forgiven. He watches over us and sometimes sends us people to help us through those tough times. Trust Him. The creator of the heavens and earth is still in control. The only one you can control is you. Let God do the rest. <br />
Your dear friend Adam

You can get through this. I have been in the same place as you. <br />
if you haven't already, you need to realize that when we drink, our negative thoughts and depression escalate. You should really try to stop or cut back if you can. <br />
I went through several years of my life when I actually thought God turned his back on me and deserted me too. I don't think this is true. I believe that God doesn't give us what we can handle; God helps us handle what we are given. <br />
Talk to your husband. It is good for partners to have hobbies, but it is not good for him to put these above the marriage. <br />
Keep in touch. :)

Thank you. But i think it is over between us. I just need to look up and ask god for strenth to go on.