All my life I've never really been able to keep friendships for long. My friends always end up leaving me and for that I have extreme abandonment issues, to the point where I expect people to leave me. Subconsciously I push people to their limits to test their loyalty and almost always end up pushing them to twit breaking point, where they no longer want anything to do with me. I'm so lonely because I can't help but push the people that I love away. I'm battling depression daily and I desperately wish I had someone to talk to about my problems and feelings, but everyone who use to help me now just calls me selfish when I try to confide in them. I feel so lost and alone.
Brennnnnaxd Brennnnnaxd
1 Response May 22, 2012

I completely relate to your story. I was adopted as a baby and I think it has effected my entire life. I also have abandonment issues. I seem to push people away, one by one. I now find I have very few friends left. I have trouble maintaining relationships. Its not a good way to live but at least we are aware of our problems. It's one step closer to changing things I guess. I have hit rock bottom so it can only get better right? I guess it's up to us to make it better. If you need a friend in here.