I am very lonely and sad all the time. I feel like nobody gives a damn about whether I'm alive or dead. I have family and some friends but nobody to be with. I realize a lot of people have this same problem and I'm not trying to get people to feel bad for me but I'm just so tired of going to bed and waking up alone and not having anybody to talk to or share things with. Most everybody I know has someone and that makes it worse having to hang around with people as couples and watch them be happy together. Its like I have a constant stabbing pain in my chest through my heart. I can't take this constant void in my life anymore. It's not ok to go through life feeling like this day in and day out, no one seems to understand me or get my sense of humor. I haven't had a girlfriend in about 2 years and the ones I have had we're never really there for me or treated me very well. My last relationship was very emotionally abusive and made me feel almost more alone than when I was alone. I'm just so scared that I'm going to have to live the rest of my life like this and I don't want to wake up in 40 years knowing my whole life was filled with loneliness and despair. I just don't know how to cope with it anymore, something has to happen soon or I think I'm going to break.
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