I'm Feeling A Little Lost

I'm not entirely sure how to deal with it, who to turn to. when i talk to people i feel like im taking up their time or moaning to them. i feel like im the only one who can help myself but at the same time i cant. im stuck while everyone enjoys themselves. sometimes i can stare at my ceiling for ages and think about nothing.
donpeople actually like me? i feel like im invisible sometimes. it hurts :( It's my birthday this week and i thought i would be alone again like last year but my boyfriend is coming up. I should be excited but im anxcious and scared as i know i should be happy that i am with him but all i feel is down :( what do i do? is this normal?
i'd like to get my smile back. my real smile.
tigerlolly tigerlolly
18-21
Nov 27, 2012