Getting Out Of Bed Is Getting More And More Difficult Each Morning

I've dealt with depression since I was 13. I have good times and bad times, but lately I'm stuck in this low spot. I moved for my job about 5 or 6 months ago, away from my family and my boyfriend to a town where I really don't have anyone. I have no friends to hang out, only see my boyfriend once a week, and live alone. Each day, I come home from work to my empty house. I sit in my living room alone. I go to be bed alone. I eat dinner alone. I do everything alone. The loneliness is amplifying my depression, making it almost impossible to convince myself to get out of bed in the morning. I can motivate myself to do anything when I'm off work, including the work that needs to be done on the house I moved into. It all seems pointless since I'm alone, and the depression just makes me want to sleep. I'm afraid my boyfriend might decide to leave me because he thinks I'm lazy and is irritated by it. And sometimes I just think about ending it because I can't handle how awful I feel all the time. I just hope that maybe I can push past it.
AnnaClaire27 AnnaClaire27
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

As I've commented on a friend's post: It's hard to get motivated to do anything if you can't fill that empty feeling inside of you. If you're afraid that your boyfriend might leave, you should explain to him what you're going through.