My Dreams Are The Only Things Keeping Me Going

I'm so ******* lonely even though I'm not actually alone. I'm sad even though I have amazing friends and family back home. I complain even though I have everything I need to get by. I'm not happy with the way my life is going, nor that I let people use me and walk all over me. I don't like how trusting I am because I always end up getting hurt. I feel like I'm addicted to my crazy out of control emotions, like I need to feel depressed and hurt and broken. My dreams and the fantasies in my books are the only thing I have. I should be happy, but I prefer my dreams a hundred times over my reality. Maybe I'm just scared of actually living. I wish I wasn't so afraid of everything :[
MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar
22-25, F
2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

I can't tell you how chilling it was to read this. It was like hearing my own voice.

No, you have just been treated wrong and like I do you evaluating them and you are confronted with it. They are present the things you feel.. All we have to fall back on the quality if our hope which in your case is your dreams. Nothing wrong with keeping it real. This life is depressing. But this week I have gotten some support and advice that we should not let darkness the troubles of this world consume you.

Awe what advice ? Maybe u can give me advice on how to be more positive lol. I'm sorry ur sad..but I'm glad ur getting better.
And it is pretty sad how.depressing life is..but oh well