My Depression And Self Harm
Okay so I am a 14 year old freshman in highschool, and i have been suffering self harm since 8th grade. It started when my mom and brothers critisizm was just going too far. One day, i decided to cut. And when i did i got hooked. Ever since my problems have just been getting worse and worse. My dads gone so i have to live with my mom. And my only escape is cutting. And i'm ensecure which is another HUGE reason i cut. I also used to starve my self and did loose some weight. But i stopped that. And now it's cutting. An everyday thing. And honestly, it helps. It really does. It helps because of my past, all the bullying, the name calling. Everything. I hate myself more than anything. Everyday i wish i would just die. Sometimes i even get to the point where i go into my closet to hang myself but i just can't do it. For my dad, i know my dad would be devistated if he knew. He's the only reason why i don't. And no ones even knows i cut. No one. I don't show them. But yeah, it's really hard and cutting helps. This story sounds like **** but whatever.