I Feel Like I'M Never Good Enough

i look at myself in the mirror and feel just ugly i've been gaining weight my legs are to big, my stomach has a pouch, I'll just be in front of the mirror, and just be disgusted, when i got really depressed i cut all over my stomach, my legs, and my arms. I know i need help but i don't want it.. This is just who i am . The girl who is scarred